I've had the pump for a few weeks now and I'm happy to say its going really well.
My average blood sugar according to the pump is around 15, I know its still high but the main thing is I am taking insulin with every meal now. It feels weird, I almost feel gulity that i am letting myself down. I know this is good for me and its what I need to do but its sooo hard. Part of me just wants to say enough, hand the pump back and go back to how I was.
But the other part of me sees all the good things, my and my family actually get along alot better because I dont have the mood swings and I'm not as snappy. i feel better in myself, and now if I dont calculate my insulin right and my bms end up above 20 I feel soo bad and soooo ill. this is weird because this is what i was running at all the time but I never felt as bad because my body got used to it. I'm glad I'm not used to it anymore because it makes me want to give myself the insulin just so I can feel better.
I'm also not as tired, which I am very happy about. I was tired and sluggish all the time but now I dont mind getting up early for work.