My advice is to be really kind and gentle to yourself. Diabetes is really hard. Feeling lost is so normal. There is SO much to learn! Read books, browse forums and diabetes websites, go to your doctor appointments, but realize it all takes time to process, then practice, and eventually master. It didn’t happen overnight, in a month, or even a year for any of us! I’m 8 years in and STILL learning. You’re smarter than you think and stronger than you realize! Try writing down your ?'s and the things you don’t understand fully- like what exactly are you supposed to DO when you’re sick- to your Dr.'s apts. Have the Dr or diabetes educator (called a CDE-certified diabetes educator) break things down for you in a way that makes sense to you. That’s what they’re getting paid to do. Anyways, we’ve all felt the pain and frustration of this disease! You are not alone!