I'm feeling rather hopeless, to be honest. Frustrated, scared, and confused as well, but ultimately hopeless. I've lost faith in the American public to do even rudimentary research on the issues, and an enormous number of people who this bill (if it passes the Senate, which it won't) harms are going to laud it. They'll justify it. They'll praise the (largely) men who passed it.
The reason I feel so hopeless is that the tide of people voting against their own self-interest is only likely to get worse in 2018. More wealth activists will get into Congress, and more draconian bills like the AHCA will pass. They're likely to even get support in the Senate (the upcoming Senate seats are stacked for Republicans to gain a few). As far as I can tell, Republicans have won, and won big. And ultimately, the reason I feel utterly hopeless is because so many people have decided that winning is more important than doing what's best for the country and fellow citizens, regardless of cost.
Now, there will undoubtedly be people flooding this thread with "oh, it won't be so bad" and "this is good for everyone!" Again, it makes me feel hopeless that even people with our disease can't parse a bill like the AHCA to see how harmful it is to them and those who suffer from the same disease. And then I'll feel even more hopeless when someone trots out the "well, healthcare isn't a right and people should have to work for it" line. People suck, what can you say?