although I feel like I've failed, I have no other option but to try again... I will one day get this right and hopefully not spend another day, night or minute looking back and wishing that I had tried harder, been stronger and enjoyed myself.
I am upset that I have T1D, how can I not be. But, I am mainly upset that I let it control me so much and make me lose faith and confidence in myself.
I wish there was a quick fix for how I felt right now but there isn't. Instead I have to face these feelings one by one as I deal with the 'regular' part of my life. And the 'regular' stuff are not that easty either. Instead it is also messy, complicated, frustrating and angering.
This is life... at least for now.