I am like Brunetta, the times that I have been depressed and struggling with things, it usually didn’t have anything to do with diabetes.
I am signed up to get daily messages and weekly podcasts from Joel Osteen. Some days I swear his messages were written for what I was going thru at the time. A couple years ago, I went thru a really bad period. It seemed like every time I turned around, the message that I kept hearing was that God did not promise that you wouldn’t have to go into the fire, but He did promise to get thru the fire. I started asking God to give me the strength to get thru and He did.
Now the message I seem to keep hearing is that God won’t let what was meant for your harm prosper and that has become my new daily prayer. Granted, God is not going to reverse diabetes for you, but some of the things that you hate about diabetes is making you a better person. You are more compassionate than others around you. You are organized. You are responsible. You are a good problem solver. You know that just because plan A worked yesterday doesn’t mean that it will work today so you find something else that will work. When you finish school and go to work full time, you are going to be several steps ahead of your classmates because of those traits. Some of the stuff you actually hate today will help you advance in your career!
I find I feel better about things when I am able to help other people. Would it surprise you to know that your posting this helped me this morning? I read your message before going upstairs and I didn’t know how to answer you. I have been having energy problems and I wanted to do 20 minutes on the treadmill this AM. I didn’t think I was going to make it after one minute on the treadmill. I started thinking about how to answer you and before you know it, I hit my 20 minutes. So your posting this helped me!
Try to spend a little time every day doing something you enjoy. Spend more time on TuD. Sometimes I am frustrated because my BS shot up to 200 for no reason and I log in to see someone else dealing with 400 – suddenly, that 200 doesn’t look so bad! Or 20 other people were sitting at 200 and you know that you are not alone. I don’t have anyone in real life that gets the diabetes stuff, so coming here really does help with that.
Sometimes just writing about it helps too. I started a blog and sometimes I write things in pure anger but I get a message from someone that what I said helped them. There are a lot of people struggling with the same things you are. Even if you don’t have the answers, sometimes writing will not only help you but other people struggling with the same thing.