Until I was 17, I was a total tomboy. I didn't like girly things like dresses, high heels, playing with dolls, pink clothes, lipstick, nail polish and playing with other girls; instead I liked video games, playing sports with boys, watching sports events and even fighting with boys. I mean wrestling and slugging it out like a boy. I came home a few times with a black eye or bloody nose. The kids I hung out with was a mixed group, I always sided with the boys and dressed in boyish style clothes. If they played touch football on the beach, I was right in the middle. If it wasn't for my long hair, small Asian boobs and the fact that I had to squat to pee; I could have been taken for a boy.
Was I like that because I am diabetic? I'm the only diabetic in my family. My mother and 2 sisters are as feminine as they come. My sisters rooms have all the girly things, ruffled bed covers, dolls sitting on the bed and shelves and a closet full of pink dresses and skirts. Their rooms smelled like perfume, mine smelled like sweat socks. The only time I ever got dressed up in girly clothes was the few high school dances I went to. Then my oldest sister had to make me up. This was no easy task because I never used makeup and normally my hair was a tangled mess. I can only remember wearing high heels once, then I almost broke my ankle.
I have outgrown most of the tomboy image. I still don't like to wear girly clothes, I sometimes do when I go on dates but if it is an outdoor thing I still wear tees and jeans. I do like to dance but my partners have said I always like to lead. Romance leaves me cold, I would rather watch a sporting event than make out in the back seat. I try to act girly and feminine on dates but I'm usually just faking it.
Because I am the only one in my family that is like this, I can't help but think it is diabetes related. I was brought up the same as my siblings except I had to go to private school for 4 years because of my diabetes.
Don't think I'm a closet lesbian, nothing could be further from the truth. I have nothing against lesbians, their preference is their business; but I want to marry someday and have children and I would rather be with guys than girls. I don't know if I will ever find a guy that meets my expectations or that will put up with my strange ways. I enjoy dating and being with guys, as long as things don't start getting too romantic, a little romantic is OK. I guess you could call me a closet tomboy and I'll probably never change.