Hi Tali and I/(we) get not only the frustration, but the fact that although "winning" has to be defined, we can win and there is no doubt about that. Sure be upset for the moment because it is good to vent, and there is no better place than here (thanks Manny!!!). Diabetes has many cards to play and one of them is to exhaust you.
When you think of it, what happened to you makes sense medically speaking which on some levels is good because now you know which strategies to apply to reverse whatever order is happening. Please make sure that you only do so in a somewhat public manner. This is the safest way to start and I don't care if you have to stay at someone else's place until you feel safe, all of which is up to you.
This February I will celebrate my fiftieth birthday, and thirty eight years as an insulin dependant diabetic. I have absolutely no eye damage and the only complication (if you can call it that) that has made itself known is a small degree of impotence and I wear that like a badge of honour. To make a long story short every time it kicks me I kick it back twice as hard and you can too!!!
I have worked hard, been very lucky, and had GREAT SUPPORT ESPECIALLY WHEN MAKING IMPORTANT CHANGES in my regime. Yes I have been kicked with a few lows over the years as well. There really is no way around that. With the general public advising/telling/demanding that we run better sugars, it is our job to do so in the safest way(s) possible while letting EVERYONE know what this statement really means. At work, at play or whenever. Ladies and gentlemen I would like to introduce you to something most only know by name, Diabetes Mellitus.
Keep up the good work Tali and don't drive yourself (or others) crazy while doing so. When your up to it, check regularly and act accordingly and give it a good swift kick back!!!
P.S. If you are going to be a beekeeper, you will eventually get stung.