hi all, some of you may know me from yahoo answers. That is where I met my dear friend vikki,. she passed away from complication of diabetes. she was a memeber on this site.http://tudiabetes.com/profile/vikkip67 so some of you may know her. if you did then consider yourself blessed. she was a wonderful person. my heart is broken due to the loss of my friend.
When I first heard from the doctors that I have diabetes vikki was the first person that I turned to. she gave me all kinds of helpful advice. and of course I have yet to follow them. When I was having difficulties with my son who is autistic, I would forget to take my pills, or wouldnt test my sugar levels or get the exercise i needed. seems like I always had an excuse for not taking care of myself and vikki would be right there holding my hand and gently guideing me towards better health. if I told her I can't remember things anymore (which I can't) she told me to take a multivitamin supplement for memory. she said diabetic should be on vitamins. when I told her I can't remember to take my medication she gave me the website of a pill box with an alarm on it, it alerts you when its time to take your pills. I have never seen or heard of one of those until vikki told me. for every excuse I gave her she gave me an answer, a solution. most of all she just wanted me to take care of myself she kept saying that and making me promise. so I guess the best way to honor my friend is just to do what she said. buy the multiviamins, buy the pill box, exercise and watch what I eat.
but the one advice she did not give me that I need so much is how to mend my broken heart from the loss of a friend. without her I feel alone. who do I turn to now. I came here originally just to inform her friends here of her passing. but maybe, just maybe I can make some here too. maybe I can get some answers and make new friends here like she did. maybe some of her friends will be my new friends.
I remember the one thing vikki wanted more than anything was to walk again. she had just gotten this new boot that would enable her to walk. and new exercise equipment too. but her wound would not heal properly. she could not were the boot. she tried it on and walked in it just in therapy. but they would not let her do it at home. but as soon as her wound heald she would be able to get out of her wheel chair and walk. she was so excited about the prospect of this she told everyone." one day I will put my wheel chair in storage and walk out of here" she said. but that never happend. so I wrote her and told her that when I go for my exercise walks ( which is really just me walking the dog) for every step I take I will say a prayer, I will pray that one day vikki will get to take a step to and walk.
The last time I talked to vikki via email, she said she had been sick as a dog all day. so I told her to get some rest and I will talk to her the next day. I emailed vikki the next day but she did not reply, which is unlike her. I began to worry but did not know who or how to contact anyone. vikki lived alone. days later I get a reply but not from vikki, from her brother telling me she has passed away. my heart is broken, I am grieving for my friend.
Please light a candle, say a prayer for vikki and her family. and take care of your self. also tell the people that you love, that you love them. do it now. because after vikki's passing I now know we are not promised tomarrow. luckily I told vikki that I loved her and she was a blessing to me as a friend. I told her how much I appreciated her and how highly I thought of her. and she reply with the same. but still my heart hurts. and I thought I could get through this blog without crying but I can't ..thank you for reading and listening.
God bless you Vikki, you are among angels now.
vikki would always end her emails with this message. so I will end this blog with it too.:
..Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, love truly, and laugh uncontrollably. Life may not be the party we hope for, but while we're here we should all dance our butts off !!