I saw an awards show last night with Mary Tyler Moore on it. It has finally dawned on me why I always stop what I am doing when I see her on tv:
As a child, (diagnosed at age 7) I always saw adult diabetics with a lot of health issues in our diabetes classes. Because of this, I think I have always believed that I would never get old. I told my mom as a young adult that quality of life was better than quantity. I felt at that time that taking care of my diabetes was a hassle, that doing blood sugers was not quality time. I never took good care of myself. But in the last couple of years, I have started getting complications like my hands going numb and the eye doctor saw slight retinopathy in my eyes last year. So, I have begun a journey. I have changed my diet, started exercising and got back on the pump. My A1C has gone from 10 to 8.3 (a fantastic number for me).
So my aha moment last night was that seeing Mary now (at 75 years old) is a great reminder that I can get old. I never thought I would get old. I never thought I would live to see my 40th birthday. But it will be here in a couple of months. And now I am excited. I am excited to grow old. I finally see that diabetes cannot stop me, that I can do anything.....ANYTHING I want to do in life.