I have so much to do today... but I feel so limited.
Ultimately I want to get into medical school. I was just looking at my courses for this next term, and there are two major conflicts for time slots that I didn't realize before. I would pretty much be missing two entire classes a week, but I can't change it now. I need these courses though, so I cannot drop them. It's not that I need those specific classes per say, but I cannot drop any courses because then my status would change to 'part time', and then I would lose my student loan. I also cannot switch them for something else, because everything is full right now. I'm also re-taking one of the courses that's in conflict, because I want a better grade for my GPA for med school. But I don't even know if a medical school will like to see that or not. Ahh.
So, I tried to call my university to find this out... but they are closed until January 2nd. I tried to call one of the medical schools I'm looking at too, and they are also closed. If I got a hold of them, then I could see if it's worth my while to postpone graduation and update a few more marks to up my chances of getting accepted. That would mean other things to do on my 'to-do' list, since applying for graduation takes a few steps.
I'm also worried about how much school I can really do in the future... back in highschool it was SO much easier on my levels to have the constant routine. Can I get an 'amen'? Every day you wake up at the same time, have lunch break at the same time, walk home at the same time, have cheer practice at the time time (in my case, anyway), and then eat dinner at the same time. But in university, every day is chaos. Class here, class there, exercise and eat wherever there is time, sleep if you don't have an exam the next day (if you are that lucky). Is this really something I can pull off by dreaming about medical school?
Yikes, I feel so anxious.