Connie, you haven't said anything that I think all of us haven't felt at one point. My number one suggestion for anyone trying to take a first step toward anything is: Crystal Light. I love, Love, LOVE sweets and I always keep Crystal Light in my house. Whenever I get the urge to eat something I drink a big cold glass of that and then wait 10 minutes. If I'm still hungry, bored, anxious whatever then I'll go and either eat something or go for a walk. Seriously, for me, it helps with that sweet craving and it's mostly water so it ends up putting something in my tummy so I'm less likely to eat. It's such a small thing but it can make a huge difference. I've been diabetic for 8 years and I only recently began taking care of myself and I still have days where I like to pretend that I'm completely normal. The trick is, after you've had a day like that, don't beat yourself up over it. Just wake up the next day and say: I'm going to do the best I can. And if it only lasts 10 minutes, hey, it was your best. Wake up the next day and try it again. Over time you'll see and feel a difference. Just keep your chin up, we have all been there and will still be here no matter how bad your day is! I'm keeping you in my thoughts!!!