Hi Garry with 2 r's, Whittney with 2 t's
Your story reminded me of when my dad had a quadruple bypass at age 50, he's 72 now & still going strong! He too met with a nutritionist and, after listening to everything she told him about his, "newly-adopted-lifestyle-because-we-don't-call-it-a-diet-anymore," spiel he replied, "So basically, if it tastes good I have to spit it out." He never lost his sense of humor through the whole ordeal! Similarly, you've just been given a pretty strict, new way of living/eating and, pardon my language, it kinda sucks! But, like others have said, don't try to perfect it in a day, week, month, etc. And, go ahead and be upset, be sad, but then move on from that and show it who's boss!
I'm going to guess you don't frequent the site Pinterest but that sight has TONS of recipes for every chronic disease under the sun! And, not sure if you've read up on the sodium to magnesium connection but you might want to look into that. I think Dr. Moore is the doc who has done a lot of the resesrch...
I'm not a doctor by any stretch but I've learned a lot from reading different things & if there is research to back it up and it seems logical I'll try it. Some things have worked & some haven't but our bodies react differently to different things & you have to see what works for you!
For example, upon hearing another mother talk about the benefits of melatonin for her disease free, healthy, competitive dancing DD I started reading about it and there's a lot of research on melatonin and blood sugar; some pro, some con but it seemed like something my T1DD might benefit from so I implemented it to her nightly routine (and mine too - I'm her mom, not a mad scientist using her as a guinea pig for my own research; if there are side effects I want to have them too!). We've been taking melatonin for a couple months now & so far, so good, for both of us! It's really helping stabilize her numbers throughout the night. Quite a feat for an 8yo girl whose CGM stats usually look like a roller coaster ride at an amusement park. At first I tried the gummie version but those sky-rocketed her numbers so then I tried the fast melts and "Bingo! We have a winner!!"
My point being, yes, plesse do what you're doctors & nutritionist are telling you but realize, they're looking at it like building a dam for you, and quickly, so they can contain & prevent further damage. But, you can read & empower yourself with things too!
And, I agree with the others. Don't give yourself such a hard time! My dad never had high blood pressure, was never overweight by more than a few pounds & his cholesterol wasn't ever over 200 but, guess what?!?! His ratio of ldl to hdl was seriously out of whack. That's not his fault, nor anything most old blood tests noted to his GP but he had his 1st heart attack at 47. Thankfully, over the years we've learned ldl to hdl ratio is important. Just like you are learning and being told it's not your fault - It's not your fault Garry.
Like my dad your first lesson was, "If it tastes good, spit it out!" Now you're on the road to debunk that instinctive thought process and retrain your brain and your taste buds. Like I tell my daughter when she looks like she's about to lose it because she had to test for the 20th (more like 5th) time that day, "We got this!" Quickly followed by, "You can stick me with that thing & test me first if you want!" I don't have diabetes so kind of a moot point but she knows we're in this together.
Garry, you've got this! And, as someone who doesn't cook, or I should say, as someone who has been asked not to cook, I know there are things you can eat & will like eating! Give kale a chance (Blech!) Lol