Missy, welcome to the family. This is a great place to make some new friends, learn about your condition and how to manage it successfully in a productive, happy life.
The general public has such a distorted understanding of diabetes that people are often terrified when they are diagnosed. Thoughts of having their feet amputated, going blind, having to eat all sorts of weird unappetizing food, and the worst -- I cause this with my poor behavior.
Undoubtedly some of those crossed your mind. I'd like to reassure you that all of that is a bit hysterical, not justified by the diagnosis. As with so many things, what society "knows" about diabetes is the absolute worst possibilities -- not what the vast majority of people who join the club have to look forward to.
So please relax. I have some great news for you.
First, your blood sugar levels are nothing to worry about. I say "worry" deliberately. 188 is too high without question, and should be brought down into normal range. But 188 is nothing to have any worry about. You're not doing scads of horrific damage to yourself at that level. You'd have to average BG at that level for many years to cause problems. So you've got plenty of time to learn, figure this out, and develop routines and habits that will keep your blood sugar in control -- and your prognosis through life very positive.
Second big point to focus on is diabetes, unlike many other chronic conditions, is a disease we can do something about. A lot! We know that managing BG and keeping it as close to normal as possible reduces the incidence of all sorts of complications -- those scary things I listed out above. And we know how to control BG. Indeed, we have in exogenous (external) insulin an amazing tool for managing this condition. Many many diabetics live otherwise happy, healthy lives. Diabetes is a real PITA, but it CAN be pretty much just that, rather than a disability.
Now, understand there are no guarantees. And many of our friends here on TuD are struggling with very serious complications, even though they were diligent, and did the best they could managing diabetes.
A big part of this is because diabetes treatment has advanced tremendously in the last 25 years with insulin analogs, oral treatments, pump technologies, glucometers, CGMs, and on and on. Before these technologies, diabetes treatment was much more primitive.
So, you have a lot to be hopeful about, and feel encouraged. Diabetes is very manageable today and is getting more so as research progresses.
Hang out with us, ask questions, crack some jokes, and see that this really isn't so bad. We all can do it.