I had a kidney transplant just over a year ago and prior to the transplant, my was in extreme mental and physical pain. Although I have a fairly big family, nobody ever contacted me to see how I was. My husband couldn't understand it, so I isolated myself and went into a deep depression, similar to the one you are experiencing. I never felt so alone and desperate and I can understand what you are experiencing. Nobody understands the pain and anguish a person goes through with this type of surgery. I got to the point where I completely lost my faith in God, and I didn't know whether I would survive the surgery. Then, I realized all sorts of people praying for me. People I didn't even know were praying for me - through this site, and through other websites and support groups. It encouraged me to be strong and that's what got me through the surgery. Just realize that you have all sorts of people who will be praying for you tomorrow. There are many people who care. Stay positive and be strong. Have faith.