Like others have mentioned, you will eventually find your balance. It is not reasonable to expect to eat lettuce all day long. But at the same time, there are certain foods, many of them white in color, that simply are not good choices because they make BG harder to manage. So focus on meat, cheese, eggs, nuts, green veggies, butter, oil and cream. This is what we call a low-carb high-fat (or healthy fat) way of eating. The good news is you never have to even think about calories again, just focus on carbs. Also, this way of eating keeps you satieted so that you don't crave the "bad stuff" as much. Keep your portions of sweets, potatoes, pasta, bread, rice and fruit to a minimum. This is hard to adjust to because it is what America eats, but you can do this. Ideas are hamburgers with all the fixings but no bun or a lettuce wrap, omelettes stuffed with meat, cheese and veggies, chopped salads like a chef salad or salami/cheese salad, sausage and peppers for dinner, etc. One piece of licorice won't make you sick as long as you take insulin to cover it. Neither will a small pancake or 1/2 waffle dipped in syrup. Moderation is the key here, and learning to count carbs and dose for them accurately. You will get the hang of this, promise.