Thank you, Kimball, for your kind words. The last thing I want is for anyone to feel sad for me. In spite of the diabetes, I have had a life many would envy, with all the tribulations, not all of which were diabetes-related. I have four wonderful adult children, and a comfortable retirement, and few needs that are not being met. So I am not sad. My foot healed, and I can move on from here. There will be other challenges, but I have learned that "sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof," and tomorrow is another day.
The depression that the complications engender when something goes wrong can propel me into carelessness, and when I was young I sometimes rebelled against being diabetic, and it takes a while to realize that these feelings are a natural reaction to an unnatural situation, and while we may regret things we did or failed to do, we cannot undo them. We must learn from our mistakes, but guilt is a waste of time. The past is past. Lock it away and live today and tomorrow as fully as you can. You are a good person, and deserve to enjoy your life. You know the Serenity Prayer; the past is one of the things you cannot change, but you can alter the future. God bless.