You sound like you have been through a lot. I’m sorry all that happened to you. Chronic illness is one of life’s great challenges, but you really are one of the ‘tough’ ones for having lived with it for so long. Bullies are the weak ones.
Which city are you in, Mike? Maybe we can locate some resources for you. You might have to experiment a little until you find something that you like, but we can brainstorm.