Confessions of a Bad Patient
Oh dear... where do I start? I guess with today, after I saw the first newsletter of the Diabetes Hand Foundation and all the wonderful things Manny and other TuDiabetes.com members have done. Or maybe I should start with when I saw the LifeScan TV ad and I felt like crying because I was happy to be part of it all.
I was at work, and I sent an IM to Manny to congratulate him and tell him I wish I had more time to help. But I am helping! I am now a Diabetes Care Coordinator at a diabetes supplies company. I love my job! I love working with people who need to take care of their diabetes. I love it when I'm able to get their orders going, when they thank me for what I do, when they tell me "God bless you!" over the phone. I laugh with my customers, and I also cry with them. I have so many stories... good ones, bad ones, happy ones, sad ones. Diabetes comes in all colors, shapes, ages... It is amazing. So yes, I'm helping... others. Me? Not so much these days.
I was supposed to go for an appointment with my endocrinologist about a month ago. I canceled it because I didn't go for my blood work. I didn't go for my blood work because since I started working full time, I haven't been able to manage my diabetes properly and I'm not looking forward to my A1C results. It's like a very bad cycle, where I don't do what I need to do, and I don't change it.
So today I told Manny I had to come here and look for support, or maybe a kick in the butt to do something about this procrastination. I am trying to eat well and I don't skip my medications, but it's hard to control what I eat after 3 years of eating at home. Some days I feel just so hungry! And exercise has become a distant memory... I use my busy schedule and my tiredness as an excuse. Horrible!
But I think coming here to write this down and confess how awful I feel about it all helps a lot. I am not looking for "poor you's" -- I am looking for support, not pity. I am looking to share the way I feel sometimes when I wish I didn't have diabetes; when I feel it's such a hassle.
First thing I need to do is go see my doctor and tell her how much I've messed up. And then we'll see.
I was at work, and I sent an IM to Manny to congratulate him and tell him I wish I had more time to help. But I am helping! I am now a Diabetes Care Coordinator at a diabetes supplies company. I love my job! I love working with people who need to take care of their diabetes. I love it when I'm able to get their orders going, when they thank me for what I do, when they tell me "God bless you!" over the phone. I laugh with my customers, and I also cry with them. I have so many stories... good ones, bad ones, happy ones, sad ones. Diabetes comes in all colors, shapes, ages... It is amazing. So yes, I'm helping... others. Me? Not so much these days.
I was supposed to go for an appointment with my endocrinologist about a month ago. I canceled it because I didn't go for my blood work. I didn't go for my blood work because since I started working full time, I haven't been able to manage my diabetes properly and I'm not looking forward to my A1C results. It's like a very bad cycle, where I don't do what I need to do, and I don't change it.
So today I told Manny I had to come here and look for support, or maybe a kick in the butt to do something about this procrastination. I am trying to eat well and I don't skip my medications, but it's hard to control what I eat after 3 years of eating at home. Some days I feel just so hungry! And exercise has become a distant memory... I use my busy schedule and my tiredness as an excuse. Horrible!
But I think coming here to write this down and confess how awful I feel about it all helps a lot. I am not looking for "poor you's" -- I am looking for support, not pity. I am looking to share the way I feel sometimes when I wish I didn't have diabetes; when I feel it's such a hassle.
First thing I need to do is go see my doctor and tell her how much I've messed up. And then we'll see.
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Permalink Reply by Kathryn on -
I have to say that I have been there. Wait.....I am still there. I totally know what you are going through. My main problem is that now that I am on furlough for the rest of the year from my job that I have the time to get myself into shape mind, body and sugar! I just have to find the will to make the effort and that is where I am struggling. I think the important thing to remember is that we need to take one step at a time. If we try to do it all and change it all at once then that is where it is easier to fail. Just try to change one thing at a time and we should be able to get ourselves in gear.
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Permalink Reply by Beatriz D. on -
OK. I made my appointment with the endo... Now I have to wait for 1 month. :-)
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Permalink Reply by DebMc on -
I have to remind myself from time to time that the meter is not giving me a grade it only is giving me a road map-- Same with the A1c. If I keep this mindset it is easier to cope with a "bad" number. They are just digits- not good or bad, they are not evil, passive aggressive or vindictive. The number is just a sign post telling us what road we should take.
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