OH I so understand what you are going through.....IN Nov. my sister-in-law who got married last March told me that she thinks she was preg., so in the middle of the night we went to get her a preg. test...and YES she was preg. Everyone knows that I want a baby more than anything;...and i always talk about it...they asked me if I was okay ..and I smiled and of course I was happy for her....but cried all night about it...and now every time I got home for the weekend i see a picture of her ultra-sound or I hear baby talks i get so depressed and I curse my life with diabetes...But it's so hard being happy ...when i am so hurt inside. I feel like my life button is pressed on pause until further notice....I am usually a happy go lucky person...but i found myself lately being really bitter and I hate it. I wish there was a book out there for helping me get over the grieving stage of the so called A1c!!