Like my heart, or my lungs my diabetes dragon is always doing something in the background. Is exhaustion, or diabetes "burnout" certain at some point you think... or is "bliss" around the corner, and I have not found it yet (Silly me).
So I ask, are you blissful about your diabetes??? Have you ever been?
Happy New year, Stu.. Am blissful about diabetes? No. Am I at peace with it? Most of the time, YES,I am. Do I get burned out and tired of the almost OCD component of diabetes management? Sure : Sometimes I ignore the test t est test and just bolus for a meal/.snack or correct a hypo without one finger prick or use of the CGMS.. Of course I do that from time to time, but not regularly
Sometimes I need a break from the tedium and almost OCD' ness that diabetes management requires.I do return to the management routitnes, it because I HAVE to., When I wan to have energy, and a clear mind , and a happy spiriti I need to manage my diabets as best as I can so I can do all the wonderful things that my life has to offer,and spend qulaity time with my loved ones. Am I blissful,, No Stuart , Honey, NOT Blissful about diabetes.
I am content and at peace with my life?. MOST DEFINITELY, or as my younger cousins and comrades would say, " MOS DEF"!!!
I'm with Brunetta on this (as I am on many things, Happy New Year to you, Brunetta!) Mostly at peace. "Almost OCD? I think it's pretty much there, lol, but fortunately so is my personality so we work well together! I haven't experienced burnout yet (3 1/2 years total, almost 2 with my correct diagnosis and on insulin), but every once in awhile I think/feel "that was interesting, but I'm over it". Yeah, right. Not an option.
Bliss? Not a word I'd use. I do experience feelings of satisfaction when the numbers fall in place. Closest I'd say I've come to real joy is my feeling of connection with my new Type 1 Women's Group and my current excitement about my brand new Ping I am going to start next week.
We ARE on the same page a lot, ms. Zoe. Hope you are having a wonderful beginning of the year!!!
No, bliss is not around the corner, but there will be hllls and valleys of frustration, burnout, acceptance, dis-acceptance, etc.
Mentally/psychologically I've been at far far worse points than I am now. At its worst I managed to take care of my diabetes but had little time or effort for anything else in the world. I'm not claiming that everything is perfectly balanced at the moment... but it's not as bad as it has been a couple times in my life.
So while I'm sure that bliss isn't around the corner, that doesn't mean that psychologically things won't improve. Overall I think they do improve. And most often they improve not by worrying about diabetes more, but by finding other things to displace the diabetes from the forefront of the cares and worries.
I kinda feels like you are dragging a 200 lb cross not fun and not fun even under the best circumstances.
I wonder if the Buddha could have turned it around to bliss?