I was at work. A low crept up on me without my knowing what was going on. All of a sudden I couldn't type, couldn't think or hear, I was seeing stars and I knew that I would pass out but for some reason, I just kept trying to work.
I have heard about people having hypoglycemic episodes and not being able to treat themselves, but it never happened to me before this. It seemed like all I could concentrate on was that I wanted to finish what I was doing. I finally got it out of my mouth that I was diabetic and didn't feel well.
The lady I was working with didn't know what I was talking about. Somehow I made it into my co-worker's office. She helped me and finished working with the client. My co-worker was very understanding and kind but she did say that it looked like I was drunk when I came in her office. I can't imagine what the other lady thought or felt.
Now I am feeling bad about it. I don't quite know what to think.I had tested earlier, I was sitting right next to my bag of diabetic supplies and food and had glucose tabs in my desk.
I feel awful bad about this. I never had hypoglycemia in public before and not been able to deal with it effectively. I maybe feel embarrassed and vulnerable?
I know this must have happened to others as well. What was your experience and how did you deal with it? How did you feel afteward?
I am the queen of inconvenient lows, so I feel your pain! It is scary when your body betrays you and you are too dazed and low to help yourself.I try to have tabs &gel (with all the plastic and "sealed for your protection " crap taken off)stashed in areas I frequent. As for being in public and having a "diabetic moment" I highly recommend telling a coworker you trust and a few friends. Tell them how you start acting when you are low and what they should do. When I start moving slow and get really really blonde Megan or Brenna run and grab me a sprite. If people know about it upfront it things go smoother when you need help because you dont have to explain what you need and why you need it while you are freaking out cause your brain is starving...as for the other people...they can think what they want. You cannot change the fact that you are diabetic and you did not ask to be diabetic. Life happens and people who do not understand that do not have the right to judge and what they think anyway isnt all that valid in my opinion.
don't feel bad! Im a nurse and Ive had to leave in the middle of a consult with a patient knowing that Im crashing. Not good but you gotta put yourself first!
Oh, honey. I know just how you feel. I had a hypo once at the grocery store. I was looking at the same credit card reader that I'd used at my grocery check-out stand every week for two years and I couldn't follow the instructions. I kept reading the instructions and they were like Swahili translated into Ukrainian. Huh?!? I felt reeeeaaaalllllyyyyy stupid. I finally told the clerk, "I'm diabetic and I don't feel well. I need to drink this juice NOW. Do you have a chair?" The manager guided me to a chair and I drank my juice and ten minutes later I was fine. I apologized when I finally was able to pay for my groceries. They were very kind. Stuff happens.
While I think everyone around us is sympathetic to hypos. I also think we hold ourselves to a standard. It is a matter of pride and self worth. I want to go through life feeling like I can take care of myself. I am actually hard on myself, harder than those around me. A hypo that required assistance (which cross my fingers I have never had) would be mildly embarrasing to me. It wouldn't shock those around me, I am quite frank about my diabetes. But it would be a crushing blow to my pride and most of all make me feel like I can't take care of myself and give me a sense of loss to my independence.
I do stuff that is embarrasing all the time. I don't worry about how I look to other people (just look at my face). But I do care about feeling like I can take care of myself.
It was very embarrassing to wake up naked in a pool of cranberry juice, that's for sure!
Were you wearing the hat?
Nope, that was pre-hat...
Cranberry juice is dark, so I imagine nobody could see through and view the "private areas". Now if it was apple or white grape juice, that's a different story.
(I'd imagine that if you soaked in cranberry juice, the sugar would permeate the skin and your ISIG values would go through the roof!)
You know, I used to live in awful fear of a "bad hypo" one that I might need help from others on. It was as you point out partly fear of losing pride and independence but it was more than that too, it was about controlling the vertical and horizontal, it was about not letting anyone know that the whole deal could be difficult or hard.
Only after I had such a hypo (unconscious, glucagon, ambulance, ER trip, the works) did I realize that having gone through such an experience, I now know that I come out the other end with all the pride, respect, independence that I had to begin with. By no means was it a fun experience but really, if and when it does happen, it's not the sea change you might think it is. If anything it removed the awful fear that I had before and I felt better for not carrying the baggage of that fear around with me anymore.
You're right, the ones that require assistance are the most embarrassing and most poorly-timed ones. I remember, back when I worked for a cell-phone company, I was training a new employee while driving around downtown Philadelphia while collecting and and analyzing wireless signals received from the mobile network. I was struggling so much, that it took all the effort I had just to go the right way on a one-way street, never mind trying to explain to this new-hire what all the numbers meant that he saw on the computer screen.
Eventually, I swallowed my pride and had the other guy drive me somewhere to get food, and then back to the office.
I have thoroughly enjoyed reading about these experiences of "going low" and see the wisdom and humor that came out of the them. I appreciate that you shared what happened to you.
I've been able to test and correct before I get too low to manage for myself and have only been dealing with this stuff for 2 years. I have glucose tabs and juice boxes in the car, beside my bed, in my purse. It feels like an expedition to just take a walk around the block. Keys, juice/glucose, meter, sun glasses, tissues, check pump, suspend pump, remember to resume pump after walk, ID bracelet, wallet card. Its so hard to just get out the door. I'd love to take the dog for a walk but know that I need all my wits for myself and don't need the extra responsibility of keeping her in control.
So glad to hear how others manage these diabetic details.
Best wishes, Sandy
Don't feel bad unfortunately it's just part of the illness. I work in a busy bar/restaurant, and when I started over the summer, I hadn't ironed out a few kinks. I ended up going hypo in the middle of a bust shift, and my assistant manager was telling me how to do things. He kept on and on, and I was trying to function while going hypo. I ended up getting a bit grumpy with him. I later apologised and explained I was going hypo. He was perfectly understanding. It sucks going hypo at work though..