Okay so I just need to vent to the only people I feel would understand... I feel as if diabetes is controlling my ENTIRE life! I'm not controlling it, it's controlling me!! My entire day is revolved around when I am going to eat, what I can't eat, my sugar is high so I have to wait and eat, I have to sit at restaurants and watch my family eat because theres nothing there I can eat or my sugar is too high to eat anything else that day, I must run to the bike or treadmill everytime I eat a friggin carb, I must wake up early so I can fight the dawn phenomenon and eat breakfast as early as possible, I must drool over food that this time last year I woofed down!!! How do you keep tight control without letting diabetes control everything you do!? If I do not do these things then I do not have good blood sugars! I am overwhelmed, angry, and EXHAUSTED! Anyone else feel me?