I haven't had much luck finding a therapist who specializes in diabetes, though I have worked extensively with cognitive behavior therapy.
Hate to ask, but where are you? I have had great success with therapy with those who are diabetic. The therapists who are diabetic and really understand chronic disease folks are the very best.
I found her through the nurses at the local diabetes care center at the local hospital. Call them. Ask for a true specialist and be patient. I did not think it helped at all at first, but it did--just took me time to digest it.
I'm on the east coast. Philly, PA area. In the past, folks at my endo office haven't been much help in finding anyone if that is what you mean when you say diabetes care center.
Who lets you stay at a hospital anymore? Not where I live, for sure!
Part 2 (aka More of the Same):
So here we are about 8 months later. BG readings still looking just as ugly as before, if not worse. I finally broke down Thursday and put a call into the CDE at my endo's office looking for more help and admitting to her that I think I am probably at the point of needing some kind of outside intervention such as possibly giving in to her previous suggestion that I should be hospitalized. She is supposed to be calling me back Monday after she shuffles some appointments and finds a hole to fit me in to see her before making any decisions. As I pointed out, my readings have slowly been creeping up, and I'm really starting to feel this. At this point, I've managed to get myself into such a mess of not taking any of my meds the way I'm supposed to be, be it thyroid, vitamins, or anything else. Last I posted I mentioned being well aware of all of the complications that go with what I am doing, but now, feeling how I do physically every day (sick, tired, unmotivated, etc), I guess it has sort of made it click that the path I am headed down is going to kill me sooner rather than later, and quite frankly, I'm not ready for that at 25 years old. I really haven't been taking any insulin for a correction factor, and she was able to give me some idea where I can start with that and some changes with my Lantus. So far, when I have stuck with it, my readings have looked much better (not good, but for where I've been running, better).
I'm still fighting with the anxiety and depression as well. I'm also now unemployed, and am finding it very difficult to keep to any kind of medication schedule not having any other real structure to my day, even with diligent logging of when I take everything from meds to food.
Again, I reread, find my thoughts all over the place, and apologize for the length. I guess I just wanted to update this, find some encouragement, and perhaps this is my admission that its time I really buckle down and make some positive changes for me.
Thanks for taking the time to read more of my ramblings!
You should be proud that you are still trying, and taking small steps in the right direction. I can see how hard that is for you, so congratulations, and keep the positive thoughts flowing !
For many years I kept my BGs high and resisted doing multiple injections. After 20 years of that, I suffered eye complications, and knew it was time to make changes. I did not have to deal with the anxiety you mention, but it was hard to break old habits, and leave my comfort zone of not worrying about lows.
By changing things gradually, and for a while eating the exact same meals that I knew the right dose for, I gradually got my BGs and A1C down. I set weekly goals and rewards when I met my goals, one small step at a time.
YOU CAN DO IT TOO ! In your words, you have, if you just 'stick with it' !
I've had T1 for 18 years also, My A1C has been between 11 and 9.6 for 8+ years. 6 months ago I developed a thyroid problem, and 4 months ago I found out I have the earliest stage of retinopathy. Complications are not fun.. especially only being 20.
I would suggest another hospital stay, you CAN do this! It took the retinopathy for me to realize that this is not going to go away, and I regret choosing to ignore my diabetes for all of these years. Good luck, you seem to be headed on the right track!
Vent all u need here. I really have no advice for u but to let u know that I'm still surviving after 38 years with Type 1 and u can too!
Ryan, You are really not as "all over the place" as you would think. You have done a great job of explaining what is going on with you and I can relate so much to your story. I have problems with anxiety too and was in bad shape when I first came to TuDiabetes with a HA1C of over 8 and afraid of lows just like you are talking about. My heart goes out to you. I finally found the help that I needed and it takes a lot of work to keep things stable, but it is worth it. I feel a lot better with good BGs. It is possible don't give up. I had a lot of trial and error and went through a lot of evaluations. I have been in the hospital a few times too along the way. sending positve vibes your way. Take it one day at a time. I know it is rough and feels like an impossible situation, you have more control over things than you think that you have.