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Permalink Reply by nat on June 10, 2012 at 1:30pm

Thank you mariana for ur reply.
It really helped me look at it all in a different aspect.And i believe i will be fine.. its just the moments you get .. you cant handle at some point.

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Permalink Reply by Maru on June 10, 2012 at 7:11pm

I know ... I get sad too but I just try to focus on doing my best or accepting I didn't choose the best decisions or I could have done it better ...
Even though I am very healthy, besides diabetes, every couple of years I struggle again and smoke cigarettes and I know they are really bad! specially for us w/ D. ... so I give a chance to make mistakes and forget myself and start again day by day! ... My last A1C was the highest ever ( 7.5 ) and that was the point that I said I have to reverse this cycle ( negative) and that is what I did. No smoking at all, working out, focus on the stuff I love ( besides being with my kids) and doing my best - I committed to have my next A1C at 6
I am doing my very best!!
Please don't give up! - We have the opportunity to do something about it.
I am here if you feel down ...

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Permalink Reply by nat on June 11, 2012 at 8:04am

Thank you my a1c results were always good. Just lately they have been high, maybe because of this whole situation: stress, emotions.
But im hoping to bring it down :)

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Permalink Reply by mel on June 12, 2012 at 3:04am

Hi Nat my name is Melissa and my daughter who is 10 was recently diagnosed with type 1 and although I don't have it myself I do see and understand how depressing it can get, I don't even have it and its depressing and stressful just watching my daughter go threw it so I can only imagine how hard it is having diabetes. All I can say as a person who cares for someone with diabetes is you have to remeber you are still the same person you were before diagnosis you just have more obstacles in your way than others and whatever you want to do don't let daibetes hold you back or beat you down. You look like a beautiful young lady and have your whole life in front of you. So all you can do is your best to take care of yourself and don't stress so much it's not good for your mind or body. I know I don't knew you but I hope you can take some comfort in my words and try to stay positive take care and I hope you are feelin better.

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Permalink Reply by Jo on June 12, 2012 at 6:44am

Hi Nat!
I agree with you. During my 3rd year of diabetes, I also got depressed. I even became bulimic. I gained weight because I didn't really take care of my diabetes, I was angry and frustrated for having one in the first place. I didn't understand "why me?", why I got diabetes. But as time passed on, I gradually accept the fact that I'm a diabetic and I can no longer change it. But what we can do is to manage our sugar, monitor constantly, and help others as well.

When I'm hyper, I get to talk a lot and do random things but when I get hypo, I do feel depressed and empty. But I realized the best way is to constantly check our sugar and manage it right away. So if you're away, inject some bolus. If you're almost getting hypo, drink moderate amount of juice to pull your sugar up. =)

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Permalink Reply by CandzG on June 12, 2012 at 7:44am

You've got a point there. I believe you just have to accept that this is how your life is right now, and move on. I think in order to do that, you have to stop clinging onto the past and look ahead, at the future.

A good song about diabetes to listen to is I Choose To Live by Howza. If you listen to the lyrics closely enough, you'll learn that there are a lot of people affected by this disease, so you're not the only one. I used to think that I was quite alone because none of my family or friends truly understood how I felt, but there are loads of people who I can relate to here!

I think you need a good support system, especially from your parents. Mine are never frustrated at me when my BGs are low or high, they just remind me that I have to control it because it affects my memory and eyesight. I'm already starting to notice the effects it has on my memory, and to be honest, it's really starting to scare me. I'm only 15; I don't have to have short term memory loss :S.

I can't remember a day when I didn't have to do at least 2 injections a day, and it's now been 13 years. You've just got to be positive about it and think that you can do everything that a non-diabetic can do, and much more.

I've recently been telling myself that if a cure for diabetes (all kinds) can be guaranteed in the future, then I absolutely don't mind living with this disease until the day I die, because that means that future generations can live in the hope that a cure will exist.

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Permalink Reply by Emily Coles on June 12, 2012 at 9:15am

Hey Nat. You and I met during the videochat on TuDiabetes last Friday. I'm so glad you're bringing your feelings and questions to this community! You've already received a ton of great input from your peers here, and a second so much of it.  Here's another 2 cents :)

I'm 37 and have had diabetes since before I can remember (diagnosed at 3.5 years). People who don't have it sometimes say things to me like "oh, you've had it so long you probably don't even notice it anymore" or "it must just be like brushing your teeth at this point". Pffff. Not quite. I still have times when I'm angry, frustrated, grieving... but those times are shorter and shorter the older I get. AND I have a perspective on life that I think a lot of my "healthy" peers lack: most stuff isn't that important. I have friends who get freaked out about regular life things that don't phase me in the least, because my frame of reference about what matters is different from theirs, and I am SO GRATEFUL for my perspective. Got a bad haircut? So what. Parking ticket? Big deal.

Nat, you get up every morning and face down this dragon AGAIN. You may sometimes feel like you're not doing a good job at it, but just the fact that you get up and try again EVERY DAY is something to be incredibly proud of. 

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Permalink Reply by smileandnod on June 12, 2012 at 1:41pm

Excellent post, Emily.

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Permalink Reply by PatientX on June 12, 2012 at 1:23pm

I have been going at diabetes for about 9 years. I think over the years the biggest challenge for me is not what I have to do to maintain numbers and the impacts of highs and lows but how things are processed in my mind and my perception of incidents during highs and lows. At one point things got really messed up for me mentally because of the combinations of pills i was taking. That period of time is when I learned that what is going on my head was worse than the disease itself. At that point I thought alot of things. What helped me get through things is how i thought of the situations and how to fight things in my mind.

Before I was diagnosed I used to be an avid cyclist. I would go for hours pedaling through out the day but work got hectic and I stopped for a little while. One thing I learned from long distance and endurance sports was the mind was the most critical portion in all. I could keep fueling myself and I could rest but once I told myself I was done I could not bounce back. At that time I learned mind games to keep me going through the distance.

So these days I used the mind games to keep me going. I try to think that what happened yesterday if it was bad did not exist. When I bike i took some nasty falls but i head that if you let a fall get to you, then you never get back on the saddle. I do have those days when I need to curl up in a ball and take in all the bad. I give myself one day to reset. After that I try to push through things and pretend that 5 minutes ago did not happen. So that is how i learned to live with this. I accept the highs with the lows and in between and just work for a better number every day.

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Permalink Reply by Zoe on June 12, 2012 at 1:24pm

Sounds like a great attitude, PatientX!

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Permalink Reply by nat on June 13, 2012 at 2:30pm

Thank you for all the replies
I will accept at some point, i just gotta figure out the way of how to accept it and live with it. Only had it for 3 years, got really upset today,. How do you not let yourself to cry?? I will be strong and posititve :)

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Permalink Reply by nat on June 13, 2012 at 2:35pm

I constantly feel up and down like happy and then sad.. what do i do about this?

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