I have type 1 diabetes. When i found out about 3 years ago, everything was fine. Now after 3 years i was depressed, everything got worse, my blood sugar was constantly high. Once i have pulled myself out of depression somehow, i keep getting upset from time to time... mostly when i get low sugar.. i know i just have to learn to live with diabetes and face all the emotions it brings. But how do you do that ??
Please provide some advice if you can
Hi Nat: I would say that grieving takes a long time, longer than most of us would care to admit, and it sounds like you are being hit by some delayed grieving. I would also say that highs and lows, the rollercoaster, are horrible and cause depression. So if you are using every tool available to avoid highs and lows, such as a pump and CGM and low carbing, then that will help. I think that finding community can really help, online (here at TuD) or a support group as Zoe suggests.
Over time, I have come to a place of acceptance about my T1 diabetes. Yes, there are times when it just sucks, but overall I have come to some place where I just accept that this is my life, and I barely remember life before diabetes (LBD). The tricky question is, how does a person get to that place of acceptance? Maybe this is what you are asking?
Dear mellita maybe this is a question of how do i accept diabetes, and iwht diabetes i still do things i love but will i always get upset from time to time?? thank you all for the honest advise. Zoe i was thinking of going to the therapist but i was scared it will overtake me and it would an ongoing process which i dnt really want. Regards insulin my sugar is better i feel like, dnt have as hih sugar no more but when i told my doctor whats happening,, she didnt really understood me , i felt like she didnt even care !!!
Thank you everyone for such a support.. and i havent had a chance yet to meet someone thats in my area and has diabetes.. i met type 2 diabetic but its not the same.. im hoping to meet a teenager with similar issues like me...
Today i went out for a meal with my friends... gt to the point everyone was having a dessert.. it always hits me when i go out for a meal ec=veryone gets dessert... not me :/
Nat, yes you can have some dessert, share a dessert with your friends or family, just have a little. It is more carbohydrates that you need to avoid, so keeping your portion small allows you this treat from time to time. I am T2, but depression is part of this too, try to focus on the things you enjoy rather than the difficulties you face with diabetes. It puts things into proportion.
.You also could get an alternative to dessert so you don't feel left out, such as an espresso. Most desserts are both high in sugar and carbs and with such fast acting carbs can be hard to bolus for accurately. It's up to you to decide if it is worth it for you. Many of us have found certain foods that are just not worth the highs and lows.
As for the therapist, Nat, you have to decide what it is that will help you. Going to a therapist doesn't mean you're "crazy" or you will need to go forever. It just means you need a little more help right now. You can talk with the therapist as to what you want - such as to see someone for 4-5 sessions, work on certain issues, get evaluated for medication for Depression, etc. There is no one way.
I'm not a huge dessert monster, a I prefer fried/salty/ hot sauce > dessert but the big problem I notice w/ desserts is how concentrated the carbs are? Particularly eating out, it comes in these massive piles of tasty glop that are probably more carbs than dinner and appetizers and drinks beforehand?
Yeah. D can be rough. I've been T1 since I was a little kid. I recommend you carry a monitor + strips in your purse. Whenever you feel rotten, test you BG. That way, you know if you're getting low, or just naturally unhappy. I often confuse 1 for the other.
Also, remember that all of the lessons that D forces you to learn would serve you well in life, as a non - diabetic; Like being resourceful and being able to handle crisis, and having friends that you can count on.
i carry evrything with me.. and yes it kind of prepares for the while wherew im that young adn experienced that much
I think I have a pretty good idea what your feeling. For starters, I know for me when my sugars are off, or moving around a lot, that can tend to leave me feeling depressed and without energy or any motivation to deal with the D. I've been fighting with that again a lot lately. I know I am dealing with depression at this point again, as I've been here before and recognize the signs of it. Even so, I have put off getting help for it for too long. Basically all that to point out that if you truly have overcome the sadness or depression, great, but if not, don't be afraid to look to therapy and possibly medication to get through it. It really makes going through the daily diabetes tasks much more difficult, and there's no reason to suffer with it.
As far as how do you learn to live with it, others here may have more insight into that than I do, as I was diagnosed young and honestly don't really remember life before diabetes. I'm not sure anyone ever actually accepts diabetes but rather accepts that there are certain things we have to do so that we feel well and in order to avoid complications later on.
Hope that was at least somewhat helpful.
You know, Nat, everyone has bouts of depression occasionally when they compare their life to others'. Some people envy others' looks, or their love lives, or their jobs. There are lots of ways we can judge ourselves and come up short in our own eyes. It gets easier when you get older and discover that everyone is in the same boat. I'm 65 and I can't live my life like I used to, I can't ride my horse or hike or swim (I have severe neuropathy). But there aren't many of my non-diabetic contemporaries who can still do those things, either. It's not just T1s who get depressed, being an insulin-resistant T2 can be very depressing when you're trying to keep your butt size under control. People here are so right when they suggest finding your own ways to help work around depression. It sounds so Pollyanna, but exercising your other emotions can help put depression in a better perspective.
Thank you for all the replies,
I still dont know what im gonna do... im not sure if the depression is gone or not.. For now im fine but starting to feel like i wanna give up.. sometimes its just too much being a teenager and trying to look after yourself 24/7/365. Arent you all fed up with this?? I am ,but i guess it makes who we are
Yeah, this morning I was changing my pod and for that short time while I had nothing attached to my body I had a feeling of freedom but I knew that it was only a temporary feeling because as a T1 diabetic I am dependent of insulin and need it to live my life as normal as possible. I have my ups and downs but I've found that by better controlling my disease, I can live a more normal life style.
I completely emphazise with you ... I have been with diabetes for more than 10 years. I was diagnosed when I was 25 years old and now I am 35 yrs old...
The way I look at it is that is like LEARN TO LIVE WITH A LITTLE ROCK INSIDE YOUR SHOE .... sometimes hurts, sometimes you might forget is there for a little while, and sometimes you just think it wasn't there and sometimes you are thankful that you have that and not something worse ...
I have 3 healthy pregnancies, I am mother of 3 handsome boys ( 7, 6 and 3 years old) and I was always told that with diabetes my risks were higher of them having issues or miscarriages, etc ... I always give all my positive thought to things that make me good! ... and give myself some time when I feel I need it ... reach out for support on things you love to do ( or find what is that thing that can make you feel better) or be as healthier as possible ...
I know how you feel because sometimes I feel the same way . When that happens, I allow myself to cry or take that sad feeling and talk with my husband. He does not have diabetes and its not the same, but he loves me and he cares for me to find that peace. Its hard but not impossible. Lets have hope that the cure will come or think that before 1912 when the insulin was discovered, people used to die because of diabetes. Now, we know insulin is not the cure but at lease keep us alive.
I hope it helps!!