Is this a thing? It is for me...
Lately I've begun taking boluses of 10-12 units of insulin without any food. I think it has something to do with my depression...I don't really know what I'm hoping for, I will usually be in a bad place when I do it and will totally want an escape. I'll then get down to a very low bloodsugar, my survival instincts will kick in and I'll treat the low and come back up. After that my bad feelings sort of go away and I mellow out, almost like an alcohol buzz. Afterwards I'll end up going the night or the next couple days not treating anything, and then the cycle will start again.
I'm thinking I probably shouldn't be on the pump anymore, because it makes this too easy, but I can't imagine getting any sort of decent control with shots, especially with my ridiculous diet of eat-whatever whenever-don't-care. I've been on the pump for maybe 6 or 7 years with no problems, no hospital visits or any complications. Also I hate hate hate shots and just can't see myself taking that step backwards.
I don't even know how to go about talking to my endo about any of this :\