So my blood sugars were 204 an hour and a half after lunch, so I gave myself 30 units in the muscle and figured that would take me down pretty low (but at least I wouldn't be high). I might have given myself more, but I'd run out of insulin, and I'm at work, which is a long way from home. Anyway, my blood sugars just keep going up. I'm now 241 and they're staying steady. I just keep testing every 2 minutes, and I'm 224, then 234, then 238, then 240, then 241.
Anyway, I'm having a panic attack and crying, because this makes me so mad. I know it's just for a short period of time and that I'll go home and give myself a couple hundred units of insulin to make up for this, but that doesn't make me feel any better now. I don't want to be 240. I want to be IN RANGE! Or at least low. I'd exercise, but, first off, I'm at work, and secondly, my blood sugars always shoot up really high when I exercise while high.
I just wanted to complain to people who'd understand. I'm completely panicking, even though I keep telling myself it's no big deal. How can people stand to have high blood sugars? I just don't get it. Okay, I need to go find myself a paper bag to breathe into before I start hyperventilating.