Wow that was a good way to express yourself it was kinda of poetic. u have found the right site for support and to get more insight on your condition. Enjoy the site they are very friendly and helpful...
I feel your pain. Four days ago I was diagnosed and my head is still spinning. I feel so fragile now. I am afraid to do anything, go anywhere, or even be around anyone.
Anyway, I am glad to be on this forum. Your message helped me a lot.