I joined this community a couple of days ago and the welcomes and mesages have been great! To that end, I am very encouraged and feel like maybe I can get better at this "diabetes thing." Especially after reading some of the other posts. So thanks.
Please be patient and bear with me.
To wit, I am 52 years old and my diabetes was discovered when I was 6 months pregnant with my last child (he's now 21). Of couse I was shocked and angry but I followed all the rules, was very strict with my diet and exercise. Consequently, I delivered a big (9lbs. 13 oz baby) healthy baby Although I am slender and with a medium frame, my son's father was a big guy (6"6' and 300 lbs) so we weren't surprised he was big.
So, after his birth, I had a "honeymoon" period of about 2 years then the diabetes came back. So, they have classified me as a Type 1. I'm saying all of this to say that now I am not a very good diabetic. My previous H1AC was 11.5 but this month it was 9.5. Still very very high, I know, but has come down some. I walk for an hour each day, sometimes I do exercise videos. I'm not a big eater (previously suffered with anoerexia many years ago), don't eat a lot of carbs, eat fruits and vegetables and the like. They have diagnosed me as a "brittle diabetic" because my sugars fluctuate so much and can go from too low to too high quickly. I am on a sliding scale of Humulog (3-10 units depending on the amount of carbs I'm eating and 34 units of Lantus at bedtime, also 1600mg of Glucophage, which I don't think is helping me at all)). In the past I have been in the hospital frequently with DKA and once was in the hospital for 2 months because of it. However, that was at least 3 years ago.
So the end of my story is that I would very, very much like to regain control of my blood sugars. It's begininng to get the best of me - I am depressed and feel like whatever I do to follow the rules best as I can, it's not good enough and makes me fell like a big failure. I've done so many other things in my life well (strong woman, raised four kids, have 5 grandchildren, had a lovely and exciting career). I am scared to death of the complications that this disease can bring; mainly, dialysis and blindness. I feel fortunate that these things have yet to occur. I have recently re-enrolled with the Diabetic Care Coordinator at my hospital and I have taken different diabetes classes in the past. So, do you all have any suggestions on how to take steps to regain control and improve? Thanks for listening and sorry it was sooooooooooooo long!