I am not even sure what I can get out of this, but I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. Last time I was honest on here my ex wife used it in court to say I shouldn't be able to see my kids......but I digress. I feel like crap everyday now and I'm losing my desire to keep up with it all. I need to get better control but I feel like even after 22 years with this damned disease I'm all of the place and I don't even know where to start. Feels like I've said I'll start something "tomorrow" for the last 10 years! I should probably get the vitrectomy because I can barely look at my computer all day without a splitting headache. I'm sore as hell every week when I fly to and from work, I have NO energy, I probably take way too many med.s but don't know how to isolate the issues.....what does one do when they feel they have reached their limit in life?
Can anyone give me or point me to a sample daily itinerary for a "good" diabetic? I travel every Monday thru Friday and I'm home from Friday night thru 5am on Monday mornings. I live out a hotel and I can have a fridge or a gym in the hotel and money isn't the issue. I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO IMPROVE THINGS AND LIVE BETTER. I understand the mechanics of diabetes very well, I understand the impact of basal rates and bolus ratios and correction boluses but I don't get the practical application in my life! Anyone who can help or just give me some words to keep me from self pity and depression right now would really be my hero......Thanks
The day I was diagnosed I started to think "how can I help others" I am probably the most "chilled out" dude you would ever meet and I do well working with people in all kinds of stressful and non-stressful situations. I work in a very high energy and high stress job and I deal with it day by day.
For the lunch items what do you have access to? Like when you travel do you have an office that you go to each day or is it more like what I do and you are all over the place running from place to place? If you are in an office environment you could bring pre-made microwave meals that are made healthy. I like using the Healthy Choice for a quick and easy to eat meal. For self made meals I do a lot of sandwiches with healthy meats. Lunch meats are tricky you have to be pretty picky. I use a lot of cut up veggies, granola bars, healthy yogurt, and stuff like that for the side dish. Also there are pre-assembled chef salads also that you could grab from most grocery stores and go with. Or you can make them yourself and use some Tupperware to carry them. It sounds like you need to maybe go see a dietitian and get some personal help with your specific situation.
Personally I do an enormous amount of reading (internet and books) and my wife and mother-in-law are amazing with food and nutrition stuff so I am lucky it is like having dietitians around all the time. But seriously I believe I now know why I am on this earth and that is to help others so please don't hesitate to ask. Especially here on TuD because one way or another you will find what you are looking for hopefully. Even if that help is just seeing others are willing to help.
So if you are stuck on food you can possibly try to get with a dietitian. I have not read it totally yet but I did get a book for diabetic food stuff called "Complete Guide to Carb Counting: How to Take the Mystery Out of Carb Counting and Improve Your Blood Glucose Control" my brief overview read of it was good. I thumb through most of the chapters and looked at some of the reading. It talks a lot about the foods. There are also some really good diabetes cook books that could help with food ideas. It all depends on what access you have in the hotel to normal cooking options and what you have when you are "at work" each day. Just like any problem it is good to even just start asking for help. Keep up the good work you sound like you are willing to try new techniques you just need to understand what they are.
I just reread this with a somewhat clearer head today (although yet another pod crashed in the night so my sugars are wacked this morning) and I appreciate the specifics. I am going to look at getting into a Suite style room instead of this cushy Marriott and start shopping for the week Monday nights when I get in. The Healthy Choice is a great idea and something I forgot that I used to do. You're a good man, thanks again.
I do what I can when I can. Have a great day and a better weekend.
Fly home tomorrow, home and Son= better! Cheers!
That's the way I eat also. I use the Healthy Choice frozen dinners for lunch at work frequently. It's fast, easy, and mindless because it has the carb count on the box. Sandwiches are an easy carb count meal too.
When you're trying to get better control and checking your I:C ratios, it really helps me to use carb counts that I'm fairly certain of.
Looks like I have some good reading for tonight. Thanks everyone for giving a crud enough to comment for me!!!!
If your life is structured enough and/or you are good at planning, I'd suggest detailing each week in advance. For example, know what you're going to eat for breakfast for the next 5 or 7 days. Write it down. Do the same for snacks, lunch, supper, etc. If you get into an exercise routine, write down when you will schedule in some exercise time. Nothing catches you by surprise then.
Let me give you a suggestion. How about a coach? If money is really not that much of a concern, how about seeing if you can get someone who can help you figure out your goals, restructure your priorities, figure out a plan and then give you the continued oversight so that you stay on track.
Well, I can tell you from experience, just because you are a good coach and give good advice, it doesn't mean you can follow it yourself. The good days are never a problem. It is the hard days, when everything is dark and depressing and out of control. That is when having someone who can reach into your world and shake you up makes a difference.
Your frustration and angst really do speak loudly. I think all the other posters gave great ideas as to managing the mechanics of this disease. I was wondering this. Do you have something else you have done in your life that you really wanted and would let nothing stop you from getting? I would try to touch in to the feelings and motivations from that experience and remember the feeling you had once you finally accomplished what you set out to do. You sound quite educated about diabetes and what's what in regard to that.It seems you have more of a lack of the emotional motivation that's needed to stay "on track" so to speak. I believe the only place you will find that is within yourself. I do think posting here shows you are digging deep trying to find that. I believe in the phrase "where there is a will there is a way." Don't base your future on the past. Tomorrow really is another day and can be a new beginning. I wish you the best of luck.