Hey Stonefish. Totally know how you feel, man. I have those days. Sometimes to often. Take it one step at a time. it can all bog us down. But think of it this way: Today is just today. So take a day to let the stress go and the anger and frustration and the worry. Let it all go today. Do something to enjoy the day. Anything. Something spontaneous, something you like, something that makes life fun. Then tomorrow, you'll remember why it is you do what you do to stay healthy. You'll wake up and think, "man, that was so much fun yesterday. I want to do it again soon, I better be healthy to do it again." and you will be healthy, and you will be happy and you will feel like it's worth it. We all got your back, man. We all want you to do well, 'cause when you do, on a tough day, We all want to, 'cause you did it. And you proved to us all that you could.
So after all that i got one question for you...so, how you feelin'? :-)
How long have you had diabetes? It is always stressful, but with time the episodes of "tired" rear their ugly head less often. It is so matter of fact with all my friends, that no one thinks to ask "so how ya feelin." And my wonderful spouse often sleeps in the other room when I have a CGM buzzing (mine is on vibrate) night. (I think he could be in the basement and still here it.) He has retrieved me from work and the paramedics several times over the last 36 years of marriage, or had them at the house. He is fairly confident I can survive. That is OK with me. I hate to worry him.
This is a great place to feel better. Talking to like minds can really make a differnce. If it continues, check with your doc. Depression is often part of diabetes. I know.
It's true time does weigh heavy when it comes to living with a chronic disease like Diabetes. But living with this disease into the senior years can contribute to the load. In our senior years we have senior physical problems that adds to the weight. My My D is well managed but it's the senior infirmatives that are adding to the every day problems.
COming from someone who totally has those days too (what Type 1 doesn't!!), I have to say, don't live your diabetic life in fear of all of the ominous things that are waiting to destroy you. I think that's one of the worse things that we can do. One of the best things we can do too, to reign in the control, is check out stress levels. So go barefoot sometimes! :)
I read right now that you are in a "mood." Don't worry .... there will be more. I'm not kidding - just warning you. It is a roller coaster life we lead.
Let me introduce myself ... I am "Possible Future." I am what this disease could cause you to be. If you aren't familiar with me, just look at my site and try to follow my steps in my blogs and discussions. My name is Lois. My spirit at the presenr moment is a bit trampled upon because of all the #@##!~!# piles being dumped on me. I have come through almost 4 years of cr%%. Not quite ending in a below-the-knee amputation! Some people will praise me for my strength and courage, some say "so what" and I say "oh c*ap, more do-do is hitting the fan." I've been in 3 different "homes" 4 times. I really can't take any more of this ----! I got out of one nursing home to spend about 4 months in my new apartment only to end up in the current nursing home for rehab. Going on 6 full months, they are talking about putting me in a group home, community-based rehabilitation facility or accessible living place. I haven't blogged on this season of my life yet because I'm still trying to convince them I can't survive a "facility." Not my nature.
Moral of story: You've met someone from a possible future for you. I'm not a "perfect example" for a diabetic but more of a "ghost of life to come!" Come -- follow me down the murky path of what not to do.
I'm not trying to be a downer - just an eye opener. There are many good things coming out of my site's journey. It's just up to you to find them!
Love and lots of warm hugs to a new friend,