My niece, who is 18 and just moved thousands of miles away to Atlanta for college, and who is like a daughter to me, found out she has Type 1 diabetes Sept. 7. It took me 7 hours of calming down before I could call her...and then my boyfriend had to playfully grab the phone from me when he saw me tearing up. He cracked jokes to her while I pulled myself together.
She is finally released from the hospital and is planning on resuming school. Family dynamics are a little funky since some think she should take the semester off and get a grip on the changes, while others think she should stay in school. I think it's her choice and have no idea what's right for her.
All I do know is that I love her more than anything and want to be there for her through this. How can I help? What can I do? I feel lost and helpless. My boyfriend says she will need normalcy from me and us so she can garner the strength from what she knows since the rest of her world is upside down.
All I want to do is make it better. Any words of advice?
In addition, I'm struggling everyday to focus on my own life. It's all consuming and I feel like my spirit is broken. I feel angry. I feel sad. I feel like God really sucks.
But I also feel like it's not about me; it's about her. And I feel guilty for being concerned for myself.