Its a blanket term, but what does it mean, "burnout"?
How do we define that term with regard to our diabetes so that we know it describes us or does not? Anybody care to take a shot at this one... define how it (Burnout) presents itself either to ourselves our families, or our larger community in general?
And to me, what you describe sounds absolutely, 100% perfectly normal in my view. The smallest bit required, and not even one grain more... a perspective and view I understand and agree with entirely.
I will not do one single test more than is absolutely mandatory. I've shot blind, and covered solely for the food eaten, many times over the decades. Played catch up later on when/if necessary.
I refuse to correct any number needing only a single unit to get back to "target". Will not do it. Two or more units sure, but a single unit, not a freaking prayer.
You are my diabetic elder... do these things in your view make me burnt-out, a DIABETIC CRISPY CRITTER -puzzed smile-??? Or can I or anyone else be skeptical, disagree with the "commonly held beliefs" (sic. gotta be tighter, gotta be tighter controlled) and still be... un-burnt do you think?!?!?
Can that be?
ROFL... if you're going around NAKED and consider that "normal" (tubes or not) I want to live in your universe (Stuart playfully teasing)
Hi Stuart.. How goes it?. For me a "diabetic burnout" comes when I just have(1):
No desire to test as much as necessary, (2)now with a broken CGM transmitter and new post-retirement insurance company that may not pay for it,I really am not so upset not not having it',because the darn Medronic CGMS is so very time intrusive and can be only randomly accurate.
. I just sometimes do not want to TEST SO MUCH anymore!! So I will go for a few days, never more than a week with MINIMal tesing, no postprandials, and occassional blind bolussing...l do come back to the 8-10 times a day testing regime because without testing, I will go on a roller coaster blood glucose ride,, and that is no fun. I am dreading having to re-do my basals because I am getting too many hyos at certain times of day, and the overnight has changed, AGAIN .GRRR....
Yet, I have a lot in my life to accomplish :The tingling and "rocks under my skin feeling" in feet and calves is diminished with better control and less blood sugar swings.. I really feel blessed to have lived this long with diabetes and have relatively minor long-term effects.br/>
The only time I go "pump naked" is when I particiapte in water -related activities(take a shower/bathe , do aqua- aerobics/swimming/boating). I am, otherwise, generally always "tethered".(lol)
Been a while since tackling this one, thought I'd try again. How do we tell, if any of us are DIABETIC CRISPY KRITTERS (ie Burned OUT) versus something much lessor?
For example having a chronic illness my entire life, how am I going to tell something so fundamental so much a part of who we are as people, is the problem, versus... ? How does one tell is the dragon, our diabetes is "the source", of a problem versus something else?
For me, burnout is NOT a permanent thing. It occurs at times, and those are the times when I have to have tremendous willpower to make myself do what I don't want to do. The knowledge that I could kill myself if I didn't at least keep in my head SOME idea of what's happening is my main motivator. I'm SO glad I'm on a pump and not shots, because all it takes is pushing buttons, rather than preparing a syringe and shooting myself. Even so, when I'm in burnout, I omit boluses, and can let my BG go up to around 400 before I can motivate myself to take a bolus. And my Dexcom helps too, because I can take it out and look at it when I think of it, rather than having to get out my kit and go through the obnoxious routine of testing. So what I'm trying to say is that burnout is real, but not continuous, and I'm lucky enough to have paraphernalia to make handling it easier.
As always, thank you for your most eloquent thoughts. My efforts failed again.
today it seems, I have been handed my own head, yet again. You provide much to think about, to ponder.
"Close but no cigar" it seems is tattooed upon my diabetic soul. It would be nice to win once in a while. Just once. Quiet sigh...
Blanket terms make me nervous, whats the definition of burn out vs. something similar but distinct and different???
My version of "burnout" seems to go on for a while before I actually realize I have actually given in to it. I am going along doing all I should and having great results. I feel confident and on top of the world. I am looking better, feeling healthy, then Bam! something unexplainable hits me. What? Perhaps I feel so great I am above reproach. I turn in nearly an instant into someone who apparently does not care about control, positive results, or what anyone, including myself thinks. Self destruction? Perhaps, but looking back I can see the burnout point. The discovery of the trigger has yet escaped me. At times I do know that it is eating out with someone and wanting so much to order something fun and tasty but other times, I have no idea. I just reach that burnout point and when the rebellion runs it's course, I am so sorry, and must, with my tail between my legs, return to what I know is right. Perhaps it is cyclic.
It seems that way for me... I'm following every rule and then something comes up (dramatic event, work stress, ...) and I slip a bit. Then a bit more and I'm so busy coping with life, that the diabetes care falls by the wayside. And I never saw myself let it go. I know I'm trying to do too much, and I am trying so hard to cut down. But some life events you cannot escape. Maybe I need to do a Saturday reset - look at the past week and what I probably did wrong and try to correct my course.
Daricel, I think you have a very good idea. To schedule a reset each week may be just the thing that could help me stay on track. OR -- at least stay on track longer and more often than I have been able to. The thing is that as long as I had a great fear that I would die from this insidious disease, I could stay on track. When something happened that allowed me to get way off track and I did not die, it opened the door to slipping so much that it seemed to become more a way of life than being on track.
For me "burnout" means the point when I seem to cave to all of the temptations which normally and for so long I have been able to resist, to ignore and stay on track. When "burnout" strikes it is if something has taken away all strength of control.