I have been very proactive in getting my diabetes and overall health back on track. However, I have been extremely emotional and depressed lately. I was PMSing horrifically for the first time in a few months last week (I'm on a low dose pill that makes me only have my period every 3 months) but it seems so much more than that. It's not my numbers for once, they have been great lately!
My main problem is that I have little to no support system to talk to about this. To make matters worse, I've been really angry and mad at my best friend/sorta boyfriend of 2.5 years. I found pictures of a girl on his computer and at first he acted really "sketchy" about it and hid the pictures. I kept bugging him and he finally told me that it was someone random he was talking to and he was "curious" as to what she looked like and it was nothing but there's all these comments from women on his profile and now all I can think is what else isn't he telling me!? I normally wouldn't care because people talk and its no big deal and I am normally a very mature person who doesn't get caught up in that nonsense, but this is REALLY bothering me along with EVERYTHING bothering me. For the record, I've been fine with the setup of the relationship at the moment because neither one of us wants to get serious when I might be moving away soon and he might move back to where he is from and some other things too. I was trying to be more open with him about diabetes lately but I've stopped because of me being emotional and feeling like he doesn't really care.
This is just one example, though. I keep getting extremely emotional over little things, snapping at everyone, and then feeling extremely depressed and hopeless. I even get annoyed at people chewing their food! OH, and I feel really unattractive right now and like a big ole loser because I gave SO much up to get my degree and now I can't find a job. AT ALL. And on top of all that I keep getting these crazy surges in emotion!
Ok, now that I'm done my rant, how do I deal with these emotions and keep my depression at bay while I'm trying to improve my control? Depression along with the stress of college led to some less than stellar A1C's and I don't want to go back to that. I know I need a better support system, which is why I am here, but what else should I do?