I miss the diabetic "dark ages" as some would call it... Care consisted of a single shot, some exercise, food exchanges and urine testing. I say freely, I openly miss those days in many many ways
Mentally, purely from the mental-emotional aspects.... do you believe that our current method of testing is HEALTHY for us psychologicly-emotionally?
I test, and do not get the desired number. I test and its very high. I test and its not low, (but might go low at any minute). Its too high, the insulin did not work as it should have. Too high I used the formula and it did not work.... there are dozens of ways to twist the words. But the almost literal obsession we now possess for getting numbers from second to second is supposedly necessary, and a good thing?
Enough tests, enough numbers and I want to believe some become dispassionate, immune to the strong emotions, the frustrations, annoyances the numbers always provide. I guess do not accept the tests we do are good for us on an emotional level. The pretense of control, the endless violent struggle to acquire some sense of ongoing perfect/ideallic control. That insane persuit does many of us serious harm... leading to severe dispair.
I do not know if I am being clear enough. But I want to ask, does that generic perspective, that poor expression of a half-baked idea is that perspective understandable to other diabetics??? Does testing improve your "mental" space moment to moment or does it longer-term only lead us (eventually) into an emotional quicksand?