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Comment by David Nelson on January 15, 2010 at 2:03pm

Sorry Kevin, that is so awful. Have you done therapy and medication to work through it at all? might provide a little relief.

Comment by David Nelson on January 15, 2010 at 2:01pm

have you tried different medications? some have horrible side effects. some have basically no side effects. tried lexapro?

Comment by The Diabetic Welfare Queen on January 15, 2010 at 12:41pm

I lost my job due to depression... In 2007, I had a very severe episode of clinical depression, brought on by stress from work... I was on family medical leave for the maximum, and then I was on a leave of absence without pay, working part time... But the medications I was on made me so sick, I seldom was able to make it to work... and my psychiatrist didn't want to take me off of them, and you just can't up and stop taking those things - it's dangerous. So my employers fired me, and since they are an 'at will' employer, I could not sue them for discrimination. They didn't even bother contesting the unemployment insurance, as they know what they did was wrong. The HR Manager at the time was a very verbally abusive man, and he even forced me to have to call the employee resource hotline, in front of him, and another HR employee. The therapist told him off, which felt good, but it has still been a very harrowing experience for me. They tried to force me to come back to work full time, with no exemptions, or else they would fire me. I did a whole week stint of full time work, and then on the friday, I had a seizure brought on by the medication, and the stress. I was too sick to return the next Monday, and was told to either come in, or be fired... So I said I was sorry, but no. I haven't been able to find work since, and feel marginalized, and discarded most of the time. This was October 2007. On Nov 17, 2009, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes, and getting it under control it has greatly improved my depression... I hardly have any bad episodes, anymore... but.. It's still a struggle. I still feel discarded by society. I am also convinced the weight gain I experienced was giving employers an excuse to further discount me for a job. *sigh* Capitalism is just so damn unfair sometimes.

Comment by Linda on January 15, 2010 at 11:00am

I take Effexor xr and Remeron. I started on Zoloft many years ago.

Comment by David Nelson on January 15, 2010 at 10:40am

Lexapro is a very good medication. Don't recommend zoloft, welbutrin, paxil, or prozac.

Comment by Linda on January 15, 2010 at 10:13am

Yes, it is a battle! I think the biggest battle is accepting that you have an illness that affects your everyday life. I've been in therapy for a longtime and take medication but recently realized that I have not accepted that I am mentally ill. I need to cut myself some slack.

Comment by Sohair Abdel-Rahman on January 1, 2010 at 7:55am

Happy New Year my friends

Comment by Buffy Joseph on November 22, 2009 at 8:33pm

Rose,

I really feel for you. I wish I was there with you so I could just give you a hug.

I have had depression for 10+ years, and type 2 D for 3 years. Did the depression contribute to the diabetes - probably. Does the diabetes contribute to the depression - probably. I'm starting to see a therapist. I am doing this for me. I am working on not judging myself and appreciating the positives about myself. It is, of course, hard work.

You obviously do a lot for others. You are right (not selfish) to do things to help yourself. So give yourself this one thing: whenever you are feeling bad, reach out. Post here, call a friend, call a suicide hotline, write a blog - anything. Just start doing that one thing for yourself, and hopefully you can start to do more and more for yourself after that.

I really hope things work out for the pump. At least it sounds like your doctor is on your side.

Take care, and keep in touch.

-- Buffy

Comment by Rose Joelle on November 22, 2009 at 3:01pm

I have really really bad depression but at least in the past when I was at work I did an okay job hiding it or avoiding it - lately I am worried it is even coming through to my work life : ( I work full time as a case manager at a homeless transitional shelter (longer term housing than just overnight emergency care/shelter) and part time for Children's Admin (Child Protective Services) where I am on call a lot nights and weekend and may have to go out at any time. I am not a student right now but I plan to go back for more grad school in September - so I guess I would fit in this group. My blood sugars are awful and I am trying to get my insurance to help with a pump but my coverage is minimal so we will see... I also struggle with an eating disorder so my doc would really like to see me get a pump b/c she feels it would be best for me especially since I am dealing with complications of poor nutrition/diabetes. Stress is a part of my life daily but a lot is self induced with perfectionism : P I think as a diabetic I need to find a way to care about myself more than I do but it can be a challenge! Some days I just want to give up or at least just have one day where i didnt have to think about diabetes! Obviously others deal with a lot of these same feelings and are under as much and even more stress than I am. I hope to gain some perspective and maybe even some strength from that in this group as well as others. Maybe this is a first step in facing rather than completely resenting my body and how I feel about it being my own worst enemy! Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Comment by Scott on November 3, 2009 at 8:34am

Hi Debi

I think I may know exactly where you are coming from. I've been diabetic since I was 7 and suffered from clinical depression for as long as I can remember. Suicide has been in range several times and I often think that it's amazing I am still here. My son had health issues when he was younger and spent a lot of time in hospitals. When he was six, we weren't sure if he'd be able to read or write, let alone be able to live on his own. He's worked hard and is now an average teenager, attitude and all.

It is so difficult when depression pulls you down. It makes every task a "why bother" task. You feel physically bad from the depression, then start slacking on the diabetes which makes you feel worse... and that cycle can go on and on as long as you let it. Eventually, you end up feeling guilty when you feel good because you are "supposed" to feel bad.

I hope you can find someone to talk to about these things and get the care you need. You do have reasons to go on, we all do, its just a matter of being able to see it which can be so damned hard. Your family loves you. One thing that helped me was trying to answer this question. Why would dad rather be dead than be with me?.

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