Oh man....I'm so sorry that you're having such a hard go of this. Diabetes is SO unpredictable.
You can balance and plan, and everything goes along just fine, then bang...for no reason the numbers are off. Could be a myriad of things....including hormones!
Though your mom isn't the one "blessed" with this condition....she too is overwhelmed at the moment. She feels responsible, as your mom! I avoid calling diabetes (or my asthma) a disease, because I don't perceive it as such. It's more of a "condition" in my mind. A disease makes me feel, well....ill. (just my view).
Your parents are very sad about your diabetes....they may even be blaming themselves, though they shouldn't....it's no one's fault. It's just life. Stuff happens. At the moment you, your mom, your dad....are all going through stages of grief. You are grieving your old life. Anger is one of those stages....so is denial. As well, the rate through which YOU travel through one stage of grief may not necessarily coincide with that of you mom or dad's journey.
I'm glad to read that you have a supportive nurse....and happy that you have found TuDiabetes. Support is PARAMOUNT! So....stick around kiddo....we want you here!
You mentioned that you have not had lows....still be prepared, just in case. Carry candies...glucose tabs...or some other fast acting/fast dissolving sugar. You never can tell! The reason why your bg went higher after you ate could be attributed to a variety of things, including not having had a balanced meal...having injected to much insulin...feeling unwell...who knows. But don't despair, keep at it....you're on the right track. It'll get better....FOR SURE!!
(The pic of the cat depicts how you probably feel just about now!! No...he's not missing an ear....it's bent back!!)
I just caught this post. Man, I have been the parent of a T1 for almost a yearand I can only speak of my thoughts / fears with regards to my daughter (10 years old). I kept falling into the thought trap of "what in the world did she eat to get this way". Even as a nurse I would do that. They are probably still in shock at the diagnosis and blaming themselves for a large portion of it. Your thoughts and feelings are absolutely legit and I hope that things get better for you and your family. They willget better. The thing is like a part of your life has died and you / your parents have to grieve the passing. That is what helped us out. Again, I hope things have gotten better since you posted on here. Be good and travel well.