I've decided that blogging again might make my road to recovery a little easier. It provides me with an outlet to express my thoughts, so I started a brand new blog.

Today, I decided to go public with my battle because I think it's important that other diabetics going through the same battle as me know that they aren't alone, and I also think it's important for our supporters to know the real sides to the beets.

I want to test it out on tu because I feel safe here. If it goes…

I'm not sure what to do. This is all consuming and I'm afraid my family might be able to tell I'm having a problem. Although, I'm sure they won't say anything about it maybe out of fear, maybe out of ignorance of the disease(s), maybe out of annoyance of me being upset by diabetes. I'm most afraid to tell my fiance. I remember one night I was upset and I diliberately skipped some insulin. I was in a really somber mood when he got home from work and he asked what was wrong. I just told him…

For as long as I can remember, I've been preoccupied with my weight and body. I've always been obsessed with looking perfect. In middle school I remember trying to squeeze myself into pants that were a size too small and putting on a bulky sweatshirt so no one could tell they didn't fit. In high school it was all about trying to be the pretty, popular girl by spending hours in front of the mirror attempting to make myself beautiful. I always cared more about what I looked like over anything…

...in case you missed me...

So I've decided to get back in to writing blogs and connecting with beets people via the world wide web because I've been having a hard time lately. None of my friends and family exactly know what I'm going through, so it's hard for them to help. I think it would be beneficial to talk to you guys, since you know what it's like.

I need a change. A healthy change. My diabetes has been far from in check lately, and I can't seem to shake my junk food…