Hey All, I've forgotten to post my latest blog posts pertaining to diabetes here, so here is part 4 of working through the desire/understanding the want to live a normal life

I also suggest to read Self Awareness in Care for Diabetes

Thanks all, Paul

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within being diagnosed with…

On this past weekend I was not active in the normal sense that I would be active during work within the week. At work I work 8 hours and lift boxes all day working with the body for 8 hours in physical exercise which can be quite strenuous at times. At this time I do not need much insulin at all to counterbalance the sugar produced from the digestion of the food that I consume during break, but this changes quite dramatically as I am on my days off.

This weekend I needed quite a lot…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-330-sugar-suppresses-our-immune.html

My chemistry teacher made a quick comment about how when one consumes sugar, it paralyses the immune system for x amount of time. This was fascinating to hear, because diabetics are known to have a weak immune system - so I've done some reading and this is the best site that I've found for it at…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-229-time-pressure-stress-and.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this system that we live in is really conducive to fears and stresses and essentially promotes the fears and stresses within the fight or flight response, and that this system within the constant need to get money in order to be…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-228-time-pressure-stress-and.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when we are stressed we will access the flight or fight response which has been hardwired into our brains from the primitive days to either fight off predators or to run away from predators or ensuing danger, wherein all that we…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-227-diabetes-and-suicide-part-3.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that within the act of committing suicide one is stating in absolution that they are not willing to live within responsibility for that which self has created unto self and thus within my consideration of suicide when I face a…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider, think about, even attempt suicide when I find that my life will be limited because of the manifestation of diabetes within me, wherein I feel that the life that I am able to lead with living with diabetes is going to suck and I am not going to be able to give myself the life that I would like to lead and thus find no point in living any longer because I am not able to have that which I would like for myself - in this…

A friend of mine who works as a Veterinary assistant was telling me about a cat that was diagnosed with diabetes a few days ago. Today she read the consultant report of the family who owns that cat and has shared with me that the family is deciding to euthanize the cat because they believe that it is too difficult to take care of a cat with diabetes, from what the family has heard from friends who previously had cats that had diabetes.

This has occurred in me in similar ways in…

I suggest to read the first part in this series for context - I have only shared part 7 because of the realizations of this memory and how I've created my own diabetes

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-220-mcdonaldsization-and.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn, develop, and create myself in a way where I suppress my emotions that I…

http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-134-worldwide-food-scam-exposed.html#.UKQ0S4bGH4w

"Hip, Hip, Hooray! China has experienced an impressive growth in middle-class consumer spending!" That's generally seen as a 'good thing' in economics. But let's just take a moment to see what the consequences have been - or, in other words, what are the Chinese…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-201-alignment-to-effective-care.html

This is a continuation from the Previous 2 blogs that I wrote - if you have not read them I suggest to read them to get context for this one …

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-200-dont-tell-me-who-i-am.html

This is a continuation from my previous post - Doctors Appointment - and here I am apply self forgiveness on the reaction of being told information about `who I am` and simply not listening because I believe that I know myself such as within the point of hormones at night and the excessive lows

I…

Hey Guys, I visited and Endocrinologist today in the first time in a year and this is what I went though upon meeting with her.

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-199-doctors-appoitment.html

Ok this is going to basically be a ranting and raving blog post for me to write out my reactions upon visiting a endocrinologist today, and the points that I am walking through…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-184-fear-and-hypoglycemia-part-3.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having diabetes, fear the struggle that it may bring me in walking this life and in this system - fear being susceptible to the highs and lows of blood sugar levels, fear having to deal with the constant that is me being a diabetic,…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-183-fear-and-hypoglycemia-part-2.html

Part 1 is on the blog as well as a few other posts that I forgot to post here as well. Thanks for reading guys.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is a correlation between coming down from a spell of happiness within a reaction of fear and…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-176-diabetic-epidemic.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there will be a diabetic epidemic arising in the world due to the amount of sugar that we consume within the products that we buy and our sedentary lifestyle, causing the pancreas to become overworked and having the hormone of insulin become…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I go low (hypoglycemic) the body is lacking in a nutrient that it needs to stay stable and operational and that within this all focus within the body is going to keeping alive, working to get sugar from something within the body, in this going into survival mode wherein anything that is not of immediately priority to the body such as any information at that point is going to be disregarded - hence the lack of…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is an overload of sugar that is being added to our food for us to `enjoy`, but the starting point has not been enjoyment, the starting point of adding all this sugar has been for profit without the consideration of the human physical body and the nutrients that it needs, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the correlation between the amount of sugar within our…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-153-perceiving-diabetes-as-weakness.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define diabetes as being weak and define myself as being weak wherein I want to hide the disease from all other people so that they do not find out that I am weak and then `pounce` on the subject and me; constantly living in fear…

http://paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-144-insulin-sensitivity-sedentary.html

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I am not active during the day there is going to be a lack of assistance from physical activity to support the transfer of sugar within the blood stream to the cells and therefore I am going to need more insulin…