I was just wondering while I am having a nightsift.

If I have been a bad diabedic and say... thinking about

1. I am going to quit smoking on the 2th of june

2. I am really from now on going to control what i eat

3. I promise to start training again

4. I am losing wight to improve my insulin intake..

Maybe I have done so much damage that it is too late? 18 years of this total crap that I have been doin' to my body.. and I am still healthy.. I even got an option…

Yesterday morning I opened my eyes and I was in the middle of dreaming and being awake. I saw a dream about a lady who has trahheostomy and I had a neckalce around my neck and I tought that i have been intubated. So a crabed my neckalse and I broke it. Couldn't say a word. I was just swinging in my bed. Trying to understand what is going on. My roommate tought that I was drunk because I had been out the day beforde that. But I was drinking only 2 beers and ate quite good. So came this hypo.…

I am going on the edge of burning out. Can you people just describe me your avarage day of you having diabetes.

What are your numbers like? What do you eat?

I just keep thinking that whatever I do is not good enough and I CAN DO BETTER. I just need do see how are you all doing :)

Maybe this gives me the strenght to go on...

Just a tought. Please...