Time for another nail biting appointment, and sadly I have just a few pages logged to show him. Hope for the best. To make matters even more interesting, I went to a pump co.'s intro to pumping class, just to see one up close and personal. Yesterday the pump rep calls me and says he's talked to my endo about me. CAN HE DO THAT? I wasn't close to ready to actually approach my doc about it, because I'm still so on the fence. Now I'm embarassed, and I hope the doc won't bring it up. Apparently all… Continue
Added by Chloe on September 28, 2007 at 8:19am —
After reading a forum post from Chick Lin, I have to say my mood has much improved. I have been terribly down lately, since the realization that this diabetes thing is not going away. It took me a long time for that simple fact to actually be processed. It's almost inexplainable. Like with any other illness, I truly thought, I'll take my medication...I'LL GET BETTER. I listened to what my doc and educators tell me about it being a chronic illness, but somehow I DON"T HEAR THEM. Later, I'm… Continue
Added by Chloe on September 25, 2007 at 7:24am —
Just when you think you have a pretty good handle on everything, things get crazy. I'm starting to think there can never be a pattern, or a norm or even an answer to how blood sugar rises and falls. I've decided that diabetes is very, very sneaky!
It started when I randomly checked my blood sugar right after I woke up and got a reading of 257. What?!? I thought my meter had gone loopy. Everyday previous to that one, I checked my BS about an hour after I wake up, before I take a shot… Continue
Added by Chloe on September 18, 2007 at 6:33am —
This must not be my greatest year. I saw a new primary care doctor last week, for a "meet & greet" appointment. Instead she did a physical much to my dismay. It all started with the phrase "you look pale, are you anemic?' In truth, I've been anemic in the past, I thought due to my vegan diet. She decided to run full metabolic panel and check for iron and b12 deficiencies. Because I'm now type 1, she ran parietal cell antibodies test, and lo and behold I'm anemic. Iron deficient and… Continue
Added by Chloe on August 21, 2007 at 7:53am —
So often, I feel like I'm alone in this. I forget that others are having the same feelings, frustrations, and struggles. It's such an invisible disease that you can't tell by just looking at someone. Then there's a reminder, like yesterday, when I ran at the outdoor neighborhood track. I put the key in my car to open the door, ready to test and go home, and I look down and see a Freestyle test strip lying on the pavement. It made me feel less alone.
Added by Chloe on August 14, 2007 at 7:28am —
I have to say that I am too excited that my mail order shipment for needles and strips actually came in correct this time! This is a first. To top off my elation, they actually thought ahead. Usually they send me 1 box of 100 pen needles, which at 4 shots a day run low by the end of the month, forcing me to reuse them. This time they sent me two. I can't help but wonder if somehow this will come back to haunt me later. I'm still afraid my insurance will deny the claim and I will get sent a… Continue
Added by Chloe on August 3, 2007 at 10:21am —
I've been Invited by the local Children's Hospital to submit paintings to show in their hallways for one month during the next year. The last two years I have declined because I couldn't grasp what subject I would present for such a show. Something hopeful...Something peaceful....Something beautiful. Nothing seemed to be right. Now I've received my invite this year, and I have something to say. I have been truly inspired and compelled by everyone's stories and posts and now I am anxious to pick… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 26, 2007 at 11:44am —
OK, I'm totally fed up. I had great numbers all weekend with absolutely no insulin. Occasionally, there was a high, but for the most part I was hovering around 120s. This morning I woke up at 125, a little elevated but nothing to fear right? WRONG! I get to work and test, and I'm now at 319. I mean WHERE DID THAT COME FROM?! I haven't had any breakfast, just coffee. And like a champ, I didn't bring my insulin with me or take my basal. Now what! I'm wondering if I should head back home (which… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 23, 2007 at 7:35am —
Yesterday without the insulin, my numbers stayed very even. Around 120 before meals. spiked over 200 1 hour after, but at 2 I was golden at 130s-140s. This morning I woke up at 111 and still holding! Feeling pretty good about this time!
Added by Chloe on July 20, 2007 at 12:24pm —
I hate to vent, but I'm frustrated. I have had three days of absolutely amazing numbers, and woke up this morning at 81. I should be elated, but I'm not. These are the days that convince me that something went terribly wrong in the Universe and I become convinced I was misdiagnosed. I mean last night I didn't bolus for dinner and purposefully ate pretzels, bread and skittles. I was 95 before the meal, 170 at 1 hour, and 120 at 2. Anyone would have gotten that high with that many… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 19, 2007 at 6:30am —
Just had an awkward moment at work. I'm trying to be a little less closet about my diabetes. Meaning I was testing my blood sugar under the desk, instead of in the rest room. This was my first time to do this, when a glance over my shoulder revealed the friendly guy who fixes the printer staring at me. I'm not sure how long he had been standing there, but the look on his face made me feel like I was doing drugs or something. I think I handled myself pretty well after being startled, although I… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 17, 2007 at 11:15am —
I had the Most wonderful encounter yesterday at the local WalMart! I was looking at the Sugar free candy and debating on whether I'd try it. I've heard awful stories about them making people sick, so I've been hesitant to buy any. A woman picked some up, so I asked her if she liked or ever had a problem with them. She replied," Well, I'm diabetic so..." Needless to say that started a fascinating dialogue. She too was diagnosed at 30 and has been diabetic for 29 years. Classic case of what they… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 11, 2007 at 6:41am —
I just filled my first prescriptions for my insulin pens and it was so surreal. Up until now, they kept graciously giving me sample pens leading me to believe maybe I won't need to take insulin forever. I can talk myself into anything, but this really made sense to me. My test strips and needles are mail order so that was just a phone call. They verified the prescription with the doc's office. Apparently the lack of prescrip. was just an oversight they corrected at my last appointment. So I… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 9, 2007 at 9:51am —
I'm wishing everyone an amazing holiday! I'm feeling pretty good right now in my own little holiday! Friday, got the I'm OK nod from the doc. No more stressing about an impending appointment. Off of work this week so that always makes me jump for joy! Just saw the "Transformers" movie, and it totally took me back to my youth. Great movie by the way (not for kids) and the graphics are amazing!!! Industrial Light & Magic does it again! Tomorrow is a holiday for everyone, and a true time to be… Continue
Added by Chloe on July 3, 2007 at 6:40pm —
All right, it is already starting. The fear and dread that creeps up on me starting the week of a doctor's appointment and spiking the day before. That day is today. I've always hated doctor's visits of any kind. This was never really too big of a problem, since the only time I went was when I was sooo sick it didn't matter. Really sick visits almost never happened.
These days are different. I have been to the doctor in the last 4 months more than I have been in my life and it… Continue
Added by Chloe on June 28, 2007 at 7:33am —
I day with the family. While family can be stressful, typically you think of family as being a haven. Lately, mine has been anything but. Being diagnosed as an adult, I got all kinds of responses from my mom, upon telling her. They ranged from "Your not a child, are you sure it's not type 2?" "We don't have that on my side of the family, so they must be wrong" " You know you always ate too much sugar" My dad can't stand talk of dieases or needles or even finger pokes (although he worked in a… Continue
Added by Chloe on June 24, 2007 at 4:30pm —
OK, So I posted for the first time on Friday. I received some very nice welcomes, but I had this very unsettling feeling wash over me. I wanted to respond, but couldn't exactly bring mydelf to do so. I couldn't figure out why. I was thinking about it that night and it was all I could concentrate on during my Saturday morning run. Then it hit me, like a ton of bricks! That was the first true open acknowledgement that I have diabetes. I even recently had a conversation with my endo (when he… Continue
Added by Chloe on June 17, 2007 at 10:27am —
Just wanted to post a great big Hello to everyone. I'm terribly new to this ....blogging and to diabetes as well. As a serial lurker to other blogs and sites, just wanted to say thanks! It's good to know there is life and normalcy after diagnosis. It's hard readjusting my life so drastically at the ripe old (young!!!) age of 30. I never thought something as simple as my daily run, could ever be this complicated or I'd have to carry so much stuff!
Special shout out to Kerri from Six Until… Continue
Added by Chloe on June 15, 2007 at 9:17am —