Beaten Down, But Fighting to get back UP!!

Well, I have to come clean. For the last 9 months I have been under tremoundous stress at home, personal life and the good old "D" is giving me a run for my money.

I get down for a day or two and then kick myself in my own A$$, and have a good attitude and find hope and strength every day....most of the time.

But, I have to tell you all.....I feel beaten down, tired, overwhelmed and just plain worn out. I have hope for my furture and will fight tooth and nail to be happy and keep on can be so very good. I want the good now....just a little bit?

So, I am airing my dirty laundry to all of you....the Life Coach and Grateful Woman is need of some help from the best people I know and will ever know......YOU.

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Comment by Michael Hutch on June 29, 2010 at 11:08pm
Why all the motivation? Why all the effort ? Why all the positivity?

Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ?
Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ?
Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ?
Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ? Why ?

I will tell you why.
I studied pathology at University, and saw what diabetes does to human organs like the heart, blood vessels, kidneys, eyes, feet etc.
I used to wonder how ? why ?why ?why ?why ?

Now I know why ?. Its the effect of elevated glucose, over a long long time/ every day, for a long long time.

So one needs to tame this beast, one day at a time.
Come rain, hail or shine, one needs to tame this beast, one day at a time.
Every day, as best as one can.

It is hard. We are only human.
One day at a time.

That's why :
all the motivation ! all the effort ! all the positivity !

Hang in there. One day at a time :)
Comment by Gary on July 1, 2010 at 2:01pm
Roybn, I didn't read this whole post but if it makes you feel any better I will be trying to get hold of Dr Zion at the 6 month marker of when I spoke to him last. Quite frankly Smart Insulin is one of the only things that keeps me going when I become overwhelmed with it all. For me it always stems back to the diabetes as the culprit to my depression as in as long as I have sugar swings I will remain depressed. Its as simple as that. Anyway, their website shows they just rec'd the remainder of the $4 million to start human clinical trials which I am anticipating should be a go by the end of the year. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.
Comment by Manny Hernandez on July 1, 2010 at 3:15pm
The Life Coach and Grateful Woman should allow herself to take a break from time to time... As almost everyone has said so far: we are here for you, Robyn!

And, in line with the spirit of some other comments here:

BIG HUG, amiga!
Comment by Robyn on July 2, 2010 at 2:00pm
Thank you....My days are getting brighter and I am in fight mode again....and grateful for my TuD family. love you all so very much.
Comment by Mike on July 5, 2010 at 7:12am
I hear you Robyn. My diabetes seems to have a mind of its own. Sometimes I think that throwing in the towel would be easier. Life has many difficult decisions(including multipe ones every day with diabetes). However, many people depend on you and me. I think people look to diabetics as an inspiration. Look at what we have to do each day, independant of our "non-diabetic" lives. Is it possible for diabetes to be exciting? It helps me to think of it as problem solving just one more issue.
Comment by Robyn on August 7, 2010 at 8:41pm
We all are strong and will make it through this 24/7 lifestyle of ours....the good old "D".....well, it sure can kick my a$$ at times, but then I just kick it's a$$ in return. Thank you for all the great comments...I love you all. xo
Comment by Holly on May 15, 2013 at 10:44am

You can handle this! Life is full of ups and downs. My husband went into the hospital at the end of January and was put on dialysis then on the day that he was having surgery to have a fistula put in I was heading to another hospital with my type 1 duaghter who is 8 because her pump malfunctioned over night and she was throwing up. My husband just got approved for permanent disability and our home is on the verge of forclosure. My friends sometimes are the only ones that keep me going. I was telling one of them that I was thinking of getting my daughter to a therapist and she said that I should go too I have a lot goig on. I never really thought about it. Sometimes you keep going and then all of a sudden you hit a brick wall. I say throw a rope over the wall and start climbing eventually you will get to the top and feel even better for all you have overcome!


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