SO I was doing really well for about a month taking all my insulin, eating right, exercising almost everyday. Only problem is I went from a size 2 to I don't even know because I put on 20 pounds of water weight in a matter of 2 weeks and then it just kept coming until all my clothes were tight and I was having trouble breathing some of the time. My doctor and nutritionist just kept telling me the water would stop coming on and that my body would eventually let some of it go but I felt awful and like no was listening to me again. That is the story of my life, my family has never listened because they have never had to deal with an eating disorder or a chronic disease at that. The only time my parents have cared is when I am in the ICU laying there half alive then they listen, but as long as I act like I am ok then everything must be fine. So anyways I fell off the wagon again, stopped taking insulin, disconnected my pump, stop checking my blood sugar and my body responded exactly how I wanted it to. Now(2 weeks later) I am severely dehydrated, exhausted constantly, throwing up, I take some bolus insulin every now and then if I start feeling really bad, but my nursing exams are coming up this week and I can hardly stay awake to study let alone retain the information. Honestly all I want to do is get better but I dont know how to fix whatever it is that keeps me from doing what I am supposed to. I have seen the complications first hand because I am in the hospitals for school and I work as a nurse tech and I still dont get a freaking grip. Its so fustrating and I am at my wits end. I won't let myself date anyone anymore because I dont think its fair to burden them with all this health crap I have going on all the time, I mean seriously who would want to deal with that? On top of it all all my friends and co workers are like you look better(now that Ive dropped all that extra weight I put on) and some of the ones I have known longer ask if I am taking care of myself and of course I lie because I dont want them on my case either. If anyone has any advice about the water weight once you start taking care of yourself let me know PLEASE!! Or if the water starts coming off eventually? thanks! :)
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