My name is Lindsey, I am new to the TuDiabetes blog, I thought I would just share my story and see if anyone could relate and maybe share some advice.
I have been type 1 diabetic for over 10 years, for as long as I can remember really. I am home from college for the summer right now and recently had what I like to call an early life crisis.
During high school, I let go of my diabetic control. I refused to test, never bolused, and basicly lived on my basal rate and by the skin of my teeth for years. It even continued into my first year of college.
As I laid in my hospital bed in full swing DKA a few weeks ago, I had my "come to jesus" moment when I realized: I cant live like this, I am destroying myself, I am not only hurting myself, but my family and friends that have supported me for so long, it has to stop here.
I am doing my best, but after neglecting my diabetes for so long, I is so hard to make myself stay in control. I know I have to straighten up before I end up really messing myself up.
I dont know if anyone else has experienced this phanomanon? I feel like I am the oly one that has felt like my diabetes is too much and just gave up.