Today has been a really emotional day for me.
After my little o/d episode last night I've just been feeling quite helpless, you know, like all this is just too much for me. Maybe I'm a little tired from getting up through out the night last night to check my levels. I worked 10 hours today and had some low readings after lunch (3.5). Felt a bit shaky and haven't felt better since.
I just feel like i can't get my levels under control. Hyops scare the hell out of me. I can never do as good a job as my body can do and it pisses me off that I'm not in full working order.
I'm sick of watching what I eat. I'm sick of eating so much! I'm sick of checking my levels all day and I'm sick of stabbing myself! Everything about diabetes sucks. It is all consuming. Everything i do is influenced by it. I can't get it out of my head.
Sorry for complaining but I need to get it out... I'm sure you've all felt like this sometimes.