I'm kind of getting tired of being diabetic. I go through it at points in my life, and I'm in that low right now. It just bothers me that I don't feel good, and it's pretty much because of the diabetes. This morning I couldn't get my sugar to come up. Over a 3 hour period it wouldn't get above 60, no matter how much I ate or how much juice I drank. It drained me for the whole afternoon. It sucked and I hate it so much. I was diagnosed when I was 8 (25 days away from being 9) so I don't really remember what it was like to NOT be diabetic, but for a day I would love to not have to worry about it. I know that this will pass and everything will be okay, it's just hard at the moment.
But I love that I found this site because it's making me realize that I'm not alone in my journey. It's also made me realize that I need to be going to the doctor more often. I'm comfortable in my insulin right now but I'm kind of thinking that it's time for a pump. I think that this would help me out a lot, especially with trying to find a new job. I recently was let-go from a job because my diabetes was getting on my boss' nerves. And it was getting on mine,too. I was having to skip way too many meals and it was effecting my mood which was then effecting my blood sugar, and not in a good way. I take it with a grain of salt, but it's still hard. My diabetes has rarely ever effected things that I did, and this actually only the 2nd thing in 15 years that I haven't been able to do due to diabetes.
It's just hard sometimes, and I'm just venting for now.