Well~ Last night my daughter and I had a heart to heart about the "what ifs" of the affects of diabetes and I couldn't help but breakdown and cry. SHe and I have not really talked deeply about this since it has happened...we both just went into auto pilot and have taken this lifestyle on with a vegenance and haven't really stopped to say "My daughter/I have diabetes"..........She just turned 13 on Sunday and we started talking about eating right, etc.....and she asked me that when she has kids, will she give it to her kids and I told her I did not know that there was a 50/50 chance, but that I was optimistic and felt that by that time roles around (hopefully in her 30's) that they will have found a cure and then she asked me what if they find a cure and we can't afford it...and I told her that no matter how much it cost, if I had to work 5 jobs, whatever...that we would be able to afford it and not to worry. What a breakthrough for her and me! It still brings tears to my eyes because as a mother, this is something I cannot just put a bandaid on, give her hugs and kisses and say its all going to be alright and in a couple days its gone. That is the hardest part of all this for me.......not having control and not being able to make this go away. Just had to vent a little as sometimes I feel like my close friends as great as they have been through all this really truely understand.
Thanks for listening!!!