Last night was a bad one. It started when I took my shot before dinner and my stomach is worn out so it didn't take the insulin. Dad ended up giving me the dinner shot. I kept checking and it kept going up, 274, then 312, then up to 476. I got so frustrated, and spent a good hour in my dad's room crying like I was 5. He kept asking what was wrong, and it wasn't that I felt bad. It was that I'm incredibly sick and tired of every little aspect of diabetes. The shots, the predicting, guessing, shots, tests, low and high spells. It's the first time in 9 years that just the thought of having it made me so upset that I cried.
While dad was trying to figure out how much more insulin I needed, I was thinking about something else. How many other kids have just gotten so down about being diabetic? I could be wrong, but it's hard to believe that with soooo many kids and teens... it doesn't just get them down sometimes. There are just so many little things about it that mix with the irritating things of being 15 that make me SO mad.