So. Today is the one year anniversary of my stumbling into this Haven of Help and Support. It feels at once longer and just yesterday.
I honor the practical assistance: From how to test in public for the very first time (jury duty) to how to deal with the Dawn Phenomenon.
I honor the emotional support: From the struggles to re-stimulate my creativity which took a hike at diagnosis to all the kindness on those inevitable Dark Days that we all experience.
I honor the shared joy and laughter: Over the idiocies of "misconceptions about diabetes" and over personal triumphs, small and large.
I honor, too, my husband and my sister in particular: They have been with me every step of the way, including visiting here and paying attention to us as a group, as well as what we offer individually.
I thought you might all get a kick out of three examples of what I call my Lunatic Notions developed over the last year:
---Everytime I get a number that seems too high, I immediately hear a Beta Cell die a horrible death---they sound a little like lobsters squealing when you put them in a pot of boiling water (something I've never been able to do, of course)
---And at such times, I lose all sense of proportion. I'm pretty good at seeing the Through-Line for any given action, but with a high number, I skip all the intermediate steps and go right to my feet being amputated. It's like my imagination just fails or maybe more like it sort of explodes immediately and vividly to the worst possible outcome.
---There is a naggy old teacher that lives in my head and beats me up when this that or the other thing isn't as "good" as it should be. I tried for a long time to track down just which teacher in my life was delighting in torturing me this way. Only to finally delve deep and see, well damn, that's my voice in my head. One of the perils of having begun my teaching career at age 16.
---Not too long after reading Bernstein and starting to get serious about counting carbs, I paused quietly on my daily walk to watch a Robin working on a worm and found myself wondering how many carbs there were in a worm!
Be well, all......Fondly and with gratitude.......