I would first like to take the time to briefly introduce myself. I was first diagnosed with Adult onset Diabetes in 2000. My primary care physician told me that I probably developed diabetes because I was considered obese. His advice was for me to lose weight and take glucophage daily. My first question was if I lose the weight would I then be able to return to my normal life and previous lifestyle. He told me that my family history did not predispose me to the disease and that more than likely I could (my father was the only other diabetic person in my family tree). I strived like a beast to lose weight. I found this book called SugarBusters and followed the plan to a T. I gave up white sugar, white bread and white flour based products, white rice, sugary sodas, etc. This was the key, I thought, to getting rid of this disease! When I was first diagnosed, I weighed 220lbs. I lost 80lbs and I thought I was on the road to freedom. Unfortunately, I was so far from reality that I could have lost my life. I am today, trying to cope with being different from my "normal" friends and get beyond the 7stages of grief so that I can live! Am I the only one who thinks that dealing with diabetes seems like an Idol at times? When I wake, I have to think about it, all day I am constantly thinking of testing my levels, eating properly, did I take my medicines, should I walk on the beach today without my sandals, can I have a lemondrop offered to me, etc. etc. I just don't want Diabetes to control me, I want to control it!